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Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on October 5, 2010 by ellocogringo

“You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here”. – Max Ehrmann

Centering involves more than emotional balance, it requires a harmony between mind, body, soul, environment and emotion. All elements must be addressed simultaneously. Toxicity must be removed. Health problems, in and of themselves cause emotional problems. Medication to treat them cause more problems.

You cannot aspire to emotional serenity while your health is keeping you mired in the mud. There is no quick fix, it requires resolve.”I’m going to do this thing”. Recognize gluttony for what it is. If you are overweight, lose it. Skip the scales, use the panty drop test, if your panties hit the floor, you’re heading in the right direction. Skip the diets, it’s not nice to fool mother nature. If it tastes good don’t eat it. Go hungry, your stomach will shrink to reflect the new reality. Check with the doctor to ensure proper nutrition. You’ll get your payback when you have to buy new panties.

Recognize sloth for what it is, take walks in the park and enjoy the beauty of nature. Recognize insecurity for what it is. Surround yourself with people who make you feel good. Recognize medication for what it is, usually a way to resolve symptoms that allow you to continue an unhealthy lifestyle in an unhealthy environment. Check with your doctor for non-medical solutions. Else, accept it. Recognize shame for what it is, we have been brainwashed into thinking pride is a sin.

The universe is incomplete without you. And above all, do not allow someone else to occupy rent free space in your mind. Do not allow anyone to hijack your goal of becoming who you are supposed to be, they are trying to pollute your mind.

Learn to bypass the canned answers you got in school and seek your own truth.

Love hard, laugh hearty and sleep well. Pursue a purpose greater than yourself. Be more than you can be. Accept yourself as you are.

Log on to Sid Here for more resources. Sid Here Website

You can do this thing.


Keep in mind that the mind is a system within a system. Picture rubber bands attached to all of the elements of this system. If you move one element and release the pressure, it will snap back. Thus if you live in a toxic environment and try to become centered, you will keep snapping back to where you were. You must cut this rubber band to succeed.
You have been given a gift. Enjoy unwrapping it.

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The Feminine god

Posted in Godesses with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on September 19, 2010 by ellocogringo

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“The Gaia hypothesis is an ecological hypothesis proposing that the biosphere and the physical components of the Earth (atmosphere, cryosphere, hydrosphere and lithosphere) are closely integrated to form a complex interacting system that maintains the climatic and biogeochemical conditions on Earth in a preferred homeostasis.”– Wikipedia This seems to be very similar to the Aboriginal world view. Ie man is an integral part of the world. Gaia’s Laughter

“Mother Nature can provide man’s needs, but not all man’s wants” – el Loco Gringo

The first council of Nicea AD 325, in an effort to expunge all feminity from christianity replaced father, son and shakinah with father, son and holy ghost. Shakinah was the feminine side of god. Analysis testing of “the last supper” by da Vinci reveals that a female figure was painted over, speculation was that it was Mary Magdelen. Just to Jesus’s right (that’s the guy in the red dress. Below) Also expunged was Book of Mary I and II. The wife’s vow, “to love, honor, and cherish” was replaced with, “to love, honor and obey.” The translation involved in the original ceremony was inaccurate. Thus the western world was left with all power and no finesse.

And then there is Azna. Mother God is the emotion. She can move, nurture, intervene and interfere. The relationship between Azna and earth is especially close. She is the harmonizer, the active helper and keeper of life. Her dominion is all living things on earth, from which the cherished image of Mother Nature was inspired. She’s been called the Lady of Lotus by Buddhists, as well as Ashara, Theodora, Sophie and Isis in faiths and cultures throughout the world for centuries upon centuries. Without the all-knowing, all-perfect intellect of Father God (om), we would be pure emotion. Without Azna, we would be pure intellect.

“A deep reverence for Mother Earth lies at the heart of the beliefs and traditions of the native nations of North America. Whether for inhabitants of lush, fertile lands, arid desert, ocean shores, or the harsh subartic, nature is the peoples’ bountiful provider, and earth the sustainer of life. As seen in the lifeways of ancient hunter-gatherers, trappers, and fishers through centuries of adaptation to new circumstances, homelands, and techniques, a profound respect for earth’s fellow-creatures – both philosophical and practical – permeates Native American society.” – Searching Eagle

YawarMayu Mother DreamCatcher

I have heard the Aboriginal worldview described as Circular. Circular reasoning is an attempt to support a statement by simply repeating the statement in different or stronger terms. In this fallacy, the reason given is nothing more than a restatement of the conclusion that poses as the reason for the conclusion.I don’t see it that way, I see it as “wheels within wheels” and not even “what goes around comes around” but “what goes around comes around goes around etc”. For instance the Mayan 260 day calendar would seem to make no sense unless one considers that the gestation period is 260 days. Thus if a woman conceived on Tzolkin 10 she could expect the birth on Tzolkin 10, As this was synchronized with the Haab (365 day calendar) no calculation was needed

In keeping with Mr. Ted’s suggestion of using “whorls within whorls” rather than “wheels within wheels” I went looking again for cymatics. Even closer to reality however is “waves within waves”

These are some really cool videos. Highly idealized though. It is amazing what emotions can be evoked with such primitave instuments as the flute, the drum and the Moog synthesizer.

Click on the description below the videos.

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Mother I feel you

Mother I feel you under my feet: Mother I hear your heart beat. (2x)

Hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ho! Hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey hoooo… (2x)

Mother I hear you in the river’s song: Eternal waters flowing on and on (2x)

Hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ho! Hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey hoooo… (2x)

Father I see you when the eagle flies: Flight of the Spirit’s gonna take us higher (2x)

Hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ho! Hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey ya, hey ya hey hoooo… (2x)

Mother I feel you under my feet: Mother I hear your heart beat (5x) Translate lyrics

The Minds

Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on September 15, 2010 by ellocogringo


Functional model of a normal brain
Plato’s Mobile

The purpose of this Blog is to propose a working model of the mind that accommodates both top down thinking (scientific method) and bottom up thinking (yoga) There will be no citations or references, this model being based entirely upon empirical reasoning and observation. Man has a unique brain, we have two cognitive minds, independent yet interconnected, and synchronous in nature. The left mind uses top down thinking in a binary network. IE true/false. This is the Aristotelian view of the world we are all familiar with. This is what distinguishes us from animals. It interprets the input of the right mind into terms that can be quantified and made more useful. (sound, time, color etc.) It is the “individuation”. It is dominant. It operates in the time domain. The right mind uses bottom up thinking in a weighted Boolean network. Possible results can be true/false/both/neither modulated by aggregate or accumulate input. This is the way an animal thinks. There is only now. This is the “connectedness”. This is the source of insight, creativity, “thinking outside the box”. It is sub-dominant. It operates in the frequency domain. Monitoring and regulating the synchronicity is the ANN (allocated neural network), wetware dedicated to comparing the results of the calculations performed by the left and right minds and flagging discrepancies by setting trigger points on the algorithms, a decision tree on each mind. This algorithm is what a psychologist would call a personality. Thus we have 3 ways of dealing with the world, dominant (left mind, skeptical) sub-dominate (right mind, receptive) and combined (“we’ll see”). This is no more complicated than putting on your doctor hat when you go to work, your wife/husband hat when at home, and your “we’ll see” hat in public. The remainder of the brain is the unANN dedicated to memory, dreaming, collating etc. Yoga (see footnote 1) is a framework that is useful for accessing this area. Rather like a neuron trellis. It can bypass the constraints imposed by the left mind to directly access all experience, the universe, as perceived by the individual. This is nirvana. Any thinking about the mind must start with the neuron. Simply put, the brain is a self programming amorphous mass of neurons. It is in the nature of the neuron to seek out, connect and communicate. Thus each mind is unique, as indeterminate as it is possible to get. Psychologists are trapped into trying to describe an indeterminate problem with logic suitable only for a determinate problem.

“The mind is elegant in it’s simplicity, incomprehensible in it’s scale, and glorious in it’s implementation.” el Loco Gringo

I use the term yoga as a generic term for various meditative techniques used to access the right hemisphere directly. 

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Field of leaves

Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on September 11, 2010 by ellocogringo

Consider an old cash register. (This is actually the image eLG gives me). There is no calculation going on. You move the appropriate lever and the appropriate leaf pops up. It doesn’t have anything to do what what is printed on the leaf or the key. Which leaf pops up is dependent on the position of the key. It ain’t thinking, it just is. Topeka

The image I get from eLG is the right mind is a “field of leaves” (except 3 dimensional) and the left mind runs a metaphorical hand over this metaphorical field of leaves looking for non-inconsistency. if a leaf is popped up, (inconsistent) it sets off the bullshit detector. and SHOULD (if not hijacked) flip over to the bottom up mode.Keeping in mind that we are talking metaphorically about about this stuff, the leaves are just flux in the tensors of the right mind. And a leaf corresponds to a phase shift relating to a consistency or inconsistency depending on phase shift. The third dimension (metaphorical remember) the fourth dimension would give the other two states, not consistent or not inconsistent. for the 4 way boolean network. This would be happening at the dendrite level (logic) synced with but separate from the axon level (perception) If I understand eLG correctly, this is a pretty good 2 dimensional represention of the 3 dimensional process going on in the right mind, Plato’s mythos. This is in the frequency domain.I am talking about concepts here, or thoughts, or symbols, the word doesn’t really exist that describes it exactly nor can they. This analysis is what I would class as “this idea seems to work”, better than “could be” but not yet “best answer to date”. So If I’m understanding this correctly, this is musing (collating, freq domain), with the left mind analyzing, (time domain) This process does not normally occur at a conscious level, but is continually going on in the background. (sub-conscious) our actions being dictated by pre-surmised shortcuts <1/2 second, and then accessing 3 1/2 to 7 seconds. Rarely museing, “head up ass mode” The amplitude being determined by the reticulator. It can be negative remember, so the graphic would show the arrows going the other way.

This is an evaluation of a perception of what what Mr Ted calls the “great mysterious” (reality)

Two realtively simple processes, not one complex one

We only think we’re thinking.

This is really squishy here. It is incredibly difficult to find the words.

As an aside, I “knew” to type in animated flux when looking for the graphic. How? first hit. I’ve never used that word in that context. Schrodinger’s “one mind”?

Pair a dimes

Posted in TD/BU with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on September 9, 2010 by ellocogringo

shift in

>there is no reason that a western person can’t see things the same way and intuitively he does (‘what goes around comes around’

This conclusion is false. A western person can know but not understand. Mr Ted understands and knows. His approach appears to be to differentiate lesser minds who are speculating only rather than integrating HIS own concepts into HIS framework in terms HE can understand so as to be able to communicate. This appears to me to be like trying to explain calculus to an uneducated person by using pebbles. A considerable task indeed when you consider that most physicists don’t understand calculus. I feel that there is much to be gained in helping him in his quest.
>”I’m trying to imagine a science fiction movie in which large numbers of humans shifted their thinking to bring it more into alignment with what you’re suggesting. Perhaps it’s inaccurate to suggest humans would be responsible for this shift. However it happens, what would it look like I wonder?”

AE van Vogt, the world of Null A (non-aristotelian)

But yes, a new way of thinking is required, but I don’t see how this can be accomplished in the numbers necessary to enable the momentum required to shift mankind’s course. we need to get past how we think, and look instead at how we think about thinking. I’ve been trying to figure this out for 65 years without success. Somebody once commented, Eddington I think, “once we figure out that one and one is two, we think we understand. We forget we need to analyze “and”. No matter how eloquent the words, no matter how irrefutable the facts, no matter how impecable the logic, no matter how noble the cause, You know that they can’t hear you. Not in any way. There are no neurons there.

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Posted in Godesses with tags , , , , on August 27, 2010 by ellocogringo

Those of you who have been following me know that I am exploring the tie between loss of the ability to connect with the right mind and the anomie of man and “hole in the soul of the individual. The emptiness inside leaving an aching need that is quickly filled by various ideologies which rob us of our sense of oneness with the universe. In western civilization this theft was first perpetrated by religion and then by education, sometimes backing up the religion. In the case of religion it is to ensure that the peasants be forced to go through the church so as to enrich the church. In the case of education it is to ensure a compliant work force so as to enrich the capitalists. The church enforced harmony by burning heretics at the stake, or in the case of heathens, shoving said stake up the heart of their bottom. Essentially, experiencing God for yourself (in a manner that didn’t enrich the church) was punishable by death. The role of asshole/idiot (used in the clinical sense) appears to be inherent in western civilization. This inability to access the right mind directly is responsible for the disfunction in society, on both an individual and collective level. And psyche, bless her heart, was another path to enlightenment. A neuron trellis. Does anyone (besides idiots) think this society is sane?

Ironically psyche is the root word for psychology, which seems to be dedicated to destroying the psyche, shooting the heretic up with smarticide. (at least they don’t shove a pole up your butt, that’s progress of a sort I suppose.) Psychology is the Inquisition of western civilization. My, aren’t these charming fellows?

Excellent post here Hannibal >Psyche

But the monomyth theory, which dates back to Jung and regards archetypes as “collective dreams”, sees in Psyche’s story universals:

  • the human journey toward self-awareness,
  • our yearning to unify sex and love, body and soul, individual and family,
  • our striving for harmony.

Cloud Mind

Posted in Cosmos with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 19, 2010 by ellocogringo


It is interesting how the society and the internet mimic each other. You could almost picture Google and the other search engines acting at the axon (perception) level and the links acting at the dendrite (interpretation, learning) level. Consider the blogroll, wherein like minded sites are set, each with it’s own network. Negentropy. With the individual computer at the neuron level and the internet at the brain level, with search engines as random co-relators. For a particular field of interest, at some point. it will just be necessary to find a couple of like-minded sites and link to them. Instead of searching for information, the information will “search” for you. “build it and they will come” – Field of dreams. And it works, they do indeed come. From the most amazing places. Places I would never have thought to search. Just follow the trackbacks, and there they are. How odd. How very odd. Instead of looking for “people like me” I put my interest on the net and “people like me” find me. neat!

The society/individual cloud mind, however, is not doing so well. That’s why I picked the stormy cloud. This is another unfinished post. I don’t know where it’s going, but it’s trucking right along, getting there in a hurry. Singularity? Social consciousness.? Cosmic mind? Should be fun. Maybe we can get there before the hyper-males shut it down.

The key to appropriate and effective application of the self-construct is to develop a healthy self, rather than to eliminate the self entirely. Eradication of the self is form of nihilism that leads to an inability to function in the world. That is not something that Buddhist or neuroscientists advocate. So what is a healthy self? In an individual, a healthy self is a construct that accurately represents past, present and projected future internal and external state, and that is highly self-aware, rational but not overly so, adaptable, respectful of external systems and other beings, and open to learning and changing to fit new situations. The same is true for a healthy collective self. However, most individuals today do not have healthy selves — they have highly delluded, unhealthy self-constructs. This in turn is reflected in the higher-order self-constructs of the groups, organizations and communities we build.

Supercomputers built from subcomputers were invented 50 years ago. Back then clusters of tightly integrated specialized computer chips in close proximity were designed to work on one kind of task, such as simulations. This was known as cluster computing. In recent years, we’ve created supercomputers composed of loosely integrated individual computers not centralized in one building, but geographically distributed over continents and designed to be versatile and general purpose. This later supercomputer is called grid computing because the computation is served up as a utility to be delivered anywhere on the grid, like electricity. It is also called cloud computing because the tally of the exact component machines is dynamic and amorphous – like a cloud. The actual contours of the grid or cloud can change by the minute as machines come on or off line.



Truth, Belief, Myth

Posted in About Me with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 17, 2010 by ellocogringo

When I started this post, I thought of Truth. Anybody seen the Crucible? The Salem Witch Trials? They’re still going on you know? 3500 cases nationwide. One was just finished about two months ago. The witch was acquited. eLG struck again and got revenge. The real story of Salem is interesting also. Much of it is untold. The proctors had tied the “witches” up behind a wagon and were dragging them around the township. The men in Salisbury challanged the proctors rescued the women, tied the proctors up behind the wagon and stampeded the horses. At this point the Governor sent a representative to find out WTF. The husbands of the “witches” went to Salisbury to get their wives and were told “Piss off, gentle persons, when thee can defend thy wives thee may retreive them, till then thee may jerk off, jerk offs. Come back and we’ll get meideval on your sorry arses” (something like that) Amish Paradise

Anyhow, back to the main point. What exactly is truth? Turns out it is different for each person. Each individual is unique, with his own triumphs and trageties. Dogma is TRUTH. But there are many truths. So what is my truth?

The relationship between belief and knowledge is that a belief is knowledge if the belief is true and if the believer has a justification (reasonable and necessarily plausible assertions/evidence/guidance) for believing it is true. A myth, on the other hand is an unprovable or implausible belief. Thus a belief may be either a truth or a myth. For instance, England is to me a belief and a truth (been there, done that, bought the T-shirt) As is Germany, Chad, France, Singapore etc. On the other hand Gibralter, Columbia, Tasmania are beliefs (never been there) there is a remote possibility they are myths. Atlantis, Wu, Eldorado, Valhalla, are non-beliefs with a remote possibility that they are not myths. With this in mind, my belief system follows;
True – ANN, unANN,
Belief – Lattice, Taboo, Centering
Myth – psychology, sociology, capitalism, politics
The mind is not a mental abstract in isolation. It is a cork floating on a turbulent sea, buffeted by waves, undertows, high winds, doldrums, whirlpools. The mind’s job is to cope with this troubled sea in a timely manner. Man is just DNA’s way of making more man DNA. This “purpose” is evident in all life. IE the purpose of a chicken’s DNA is to make more chicken DNA. By extension the “purpose” of life is to make more life.

The War

Posted in Society with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 17, 2010 by ellocogringo


here is a war going on for your minds


Media mavens mount surgical strikes from trapper
keeper collages and online magazine racks
Cover girl cutouts throw up pop-up ads
infecting victims with silicone shrapnel

Worldwide passenger pigeons deploy paratroopers
Now it’s raining pornography
Lovers take shelter
Post-production debutantes pursue you in Nascar chariots

They construct ransom letters from biblical passages and
bleed mascara into the holy water supplies

There’s a war going on for your mind

Industry insiders slang test tube babies to corporate crack heads
They flash logos and blast ghettos
Their embroidered neckties say “Stop Stitching”
Conscious rappers and whistle blowers get stitches made
of acupuncture needles and marionette strings

There is a war going on for your mind

Professional wrestlers and vice presidents want
you to believe them
The desert sky is their blue screen
They superimpose explosions
They shout at you
“Pay no attention to the men behind the barbed curtain
Nor the craters beneath the draped flags
Those hoods are there for your protection
And meteors these days are the size of corpses”

We are the insurgents

There is a war going on for your mind


Posted in Cosmos with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 15, 2010 by ellocogringo


You and squee are getting hot and heavy into this. but!
something feels uncomfortable about this

The anarchist team (a peer-peer network or ‘web-of-life’ type organization) implicitly recognizes that the
dynamic space that includes us (aka the ‘habitat’) TRANSCENDS the transient
inhabitants that are continually gathered and being regathered in the
spatial flow; i.e. the inhabitants are not ‘primary’ in the world dynamic
(as the Amerindians say; ‘the habitat does not belong to the inhabitant, the
inhabitant belongs to the habitat’ [‘the earth does not belong to man, man
belongs to the earth]).

not that there’s anything wrong with the answer, but something wrong with the implied question
so far what comes to mind is;
Our minds (plural) are optimized for dealing with reality by asking questions that can be posed for resolution by either a binary rational process or a boolean logical process or both. IE A or B or Both. However, unaddressed is the forth option Neither. The Both option has been negated by the ABF or the TBF. But the neither option is still open. thinking in known, unknown terms there are known knowns, known unknowns, unknown knowns but unanswered is the unknowns. the dog that doesn’t bark. the occurrence that leaves no trace. the non-exception. the problem i had with your sailboat without reference points. I pointed out there are always two reference points, here and somewhere else, the vector depending on whether the exception is positive or negative. I know this is squishy but maybe it can’t be helped. And the further we zoom in and out from the optimal the squishier it gets. However I have the sense that the “best answer to date” lies not in profound and complex ponderings but in simplicity. so far my minds “skitter” off this problem. irrelevant to survival? dunno yet but eLG’s on it. it has just become relevant to dealing with the world. walt


Posted in Cosmos with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 14, 2010 by ellocogringo

Endoplasmic Reticulator

ScienceDaily (Sep. 8, 2009) — Fifty years after it was originally discovered, scientists at the Friedrich Miescher Institute for Biomedical Research have elucidated the function of a microscopic network of tubules found in neurons. This structure modulates the strength of connections between two neuronsThe endoplasmic reticulum is a network of sacs that manufactures, processes, and transports chemical compounds for use inside and outside of the cell. This structure modulates the strength of connections between two neurons,

1 Nucleus 2 Nuclear pore 3 Rough endoplasmic reticulum (RER) 4 Smooth endoplasmic reticulum (SER) 5 Ribosome on the rough ER 6 Proteins that are transported 7 Transport vesicle 8 Golgi apparatus 9 Cis face of the Golgi apparatus 10 Trans face of the Golgi apparatus 11 Cisternae of the Golgi apparatus


Posted in Cosmos with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 12, 2010 by ellocogringo


Previosly I had posited the the minds were doing the equivalent of what I was doing in geophysical data processing. This view says that the right mind is perceiving reality in the frequency domain at the axon level. This perception is expressed as tensors, (rotating vectors) which are, in turn interpreted by the left mind as dimensions, color and time (and other things). This is exactly the same process used in data processing, in which input vibrations (time domain)are translated by a rastor box (Fourier Transform) into the frequency domain and back (inverse Fourier transform). But the 4th dimensional component is not actually thrown away, it is expressed as phase as an addendum (kludge) This happens because we can’t draw a four dimensional representation of anything on a piece of paper.

BUT, what if the wrong dimension was thrown away? I think that phase was interpreted as time. So that would lead me to believe that phase is a function of the reticular activator. Applying a “twist” to the vector, putting the rotate into the vector, making it a tensor. This would account for the situational nature of the right mind’s time. The weighting spoken of earlier, the intensity. So, in a sense, weighting IS the time of the right mind. (How big is that lion?) Which would speed up or slow down the variable nature of “natural” time. In other words, how fast the vector spins. Keep in mind that this is only a perception of reality, and not reality. Reality’s outside the skull. As to how, see

This is NOT thinking, but perception and interpretation. Thinking is handled at the dendrite level

emergence EndoplasmicReticular Time


Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on August 2, 2010 by ellocogringo

Chi The life force power of the universe. There are jillions  of cults, procedures, techniques. myths, legends etc. alluding to tapping into the power of the universe. Even the bible mentions it.It is telling that I consider this somewhat mundane.  I picked Reiki only because it has a cool graphic.  Here’s some links if you’re interested ReikiPage Laying on of hands ReikiFAQ

Pissing with the wind rather than into it.  If the plane’s flying backwards, reverse the pitch of the prop.  Mr Sid’s going with the flow.  Pulling up the anchor on Mr. Ted’s much beloved sailboat.  I view it as not so much increasing power, but reducing drag,  Removing impediments,  Getting the mind back to the state it was created/evolved/unfolded in.  Using both sides of the brain.  Or Mr M’s getting in the zone. Try to see the big picture.

Get down to the real nitty gritty.  You can’t take the dancer out of the dance.  The dancer and the dance are interactive, but there is more happening here.  More than choreography.  More than music. More than lighting.  If you take this apart, the resulting parts are trite.  Trivial. Meaningless.  In the WHOLE is more than all that.  It is what we used to call a happening.  It is a synergy of all the parts, from the individual molecules of the dancers to the universe which supplies the parts when stars explode. We are star people.  Understand the magnificence of what is going on.  The whole is greater than the sum of the parts.  Embrace the wonder of it all.  Have a happening

Removing Lattices and  Taboos.  Seeing the world in its interactive whole.  In short being normal.  Just recognizing that there are other ripples out there.  And acting accordingly.  The water’s fine. Jump in.  Unwrap your gift and enjoy.

The one I can relate most easily to, however in Mr Ted’s Hurricane.  Get the hell out of the way.  The same thing happened in 1968 with hurricane Bessie, and I got out of the way.  Went to Florida in fact.  I really don’t like hurricanes.  


Atenolol Dreams

Posted in Lost Gods with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 27, 2010 by ellocogringo

I have a genetic condition called HOCM. In simplist terms, if my heart rate goes too high, I die. So I take atenolol to keep that from happening. When I started taking it I began having lucid dreams. Full color sight sound, indistinguishable from reality, except I knew I was dreaming. I just love chatting with debt collectors. They get so frustrated when I keep changing the subject and ask about their kids, weather etc. One particularily obnoxious one gave up. After a couple of weeks, I called him back, “what’s the matter, Bob. you pissed off at me? and started chatting again. The second time he threatened “don’t you EVER call back here again”. The third time he put a block on me. I like to put the fun back in disfunctional.

Another encounter I had was with American Express. L Ron Hubbard referred to them as American Distress. I referred to the lien holder (homecomings) as shortcomings and the second holder (beneficial) as superficial, he didn’t like that either. I’ll have to do something on him. Back to American Distress. when I was in S’pore I used the American Distress card for my travels. When I returned to Houston, I began getting bills from AD for rather modest sums for William N Gremillion (I’m Walter J Gremillion) Actually my wife got them, AD was a company card and the bills went directly to Petty Ray. I didn’t even know how much they were, but it must have been several thousand a month. I first became aware of it when my wife, livid with rage, came storming into my office with one of these bills, which had a dinner for two at Steak’n’Ale and a motel bill the same night at Royal Coacn Inn, both of which were near the office and close to my apartment. Went to see Melody, (what a neat name, nicknamed Squirm, (her brother used to tickle her when she was a kid, I’ll have to do something on what happened to her in Chad) She pulled the records and pointed out that on the date in question I was in Pakistan. The company lawyer told me to tell em to get fucked, in writing, and bring it to a head. The court was in Austin, William showed up. The AD attorney came up and asked “is all that happened is they got your records mixed up?” In any case, the judge was reading the AD attorney the riot act as we were walking out.

Bill collectors need all the love you can give them while calling “them” at home.

michael j

Has anyone noticed that when you overdraw your account the bank wants more of what they know you ain’t got none of?

I bet you wonder what this has to do with forgotten gods? Well, the dreams formed a story, one part of which involved an alien race that had the same brain fart alluded to in “the road not taken” I’ve started another website and have started uploading these dreams. I encounter the aliens (in the dream) on a planet named Chloe, (French for meadow, a common word in Louisiana). Atenolol Dreams


Forgotten God

Posted in Lost Gods with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 26, 2010 by ellocogringo

As anyone following me knows, I am aware of two cognitive minds, and no one else is. So either I’m crazy or every one else is. If you feel I’m crazy you can take comfort in the knowledge you are running with the squirrls. I am fascinated by thinking, or specifically thinking about thinking and the effects of this dual mind we have on the thought process. Certain concepts resonate with me, the feminine god for one. This is to be a never ending post, as I continue to explore, feeding my hungry neurons. I will put these in a new catagory called Forgotten.

Road Not Taken

The first of these resonances is “The Road Not Taken”, a science fiction story in the mid 80’s. It opens with the Roxilian commander of a spaceship bound on intergalatic conquest. He sights out the quartz porthole and adjusts his course with a quadrant. He hopes for a new planet to conquer soon, the stench in the ship is overwhelming. The slopjars are overflowing, the animals have all been eaten, and the plants used to supply the oxygen have all been burned to hold off the cold of interstellar space. They’re running low on musket balls and the black powder is damp and misfires. All of the steeds have since died, but he is certain that their superior technology will allow them to prevail. The entire story is told from the point of view of the Roxilians. These beings are savages, this is a stone age culture with space travel. WTF? to make the story short, they land on the front lawn of the white house and the entire invasion force is blown away by the two dozen secret service agents in half an hour or so. What has happened is that it is humans that have taken the road less traveled. Space travel, time travel, teleportation etc. are relatively simple concepts discovered by most civilizations in a universe teeming with intelligence. Their progress has stopped because they were unable to analyze but thought only in a “right mind” mode.
Fascinating! Road not taken

Footprints of god FootprintOfGod









Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , on July 26, 2010 by ellocogringo

is the ability of the mind to see itself

Here you go children.  If you don’t feel like spending years in a Tibetian monastery going Oooom! or you think yoga is effete and your therapist is an idiot.  or mindfullness doesn’t work.  This may be for you.  Remember there is no RIGHT “one size fits all answer'”  You are unique and what is RIGHT is what is right for you.  If it feels comfortable, go for it.  Maharishi emeritus el Loco Gringo gives an absolute unequivocal guarantee that this may work for some people.

For many therapists, what Siegel has done is to show just how, from the moment we’re born, our most important relationships fire into being the neural circuits of the brain that allow us to understand and empathize with others and feel their feelings. But beyond that, he’s gone on to link his interest in both science and the nuance of relationship with the almost unfathomable complexities of neuroscience to generate a field he calls “interpersonal neurobiology,” which has brought the latest findings of brain science directly into the therapist’s consulting room. As much as any figure in the mental health field, he’s taken on, as both a professional challenge and a personal quest, the task of showing his clinician colleagues how the objective, physical matter of the brain-its lobes, modules, folds, lumps, tubes, and fibers-creates the possibilities for the subjective life of the mind, heart, soul, and spirit that is the glory of our species.

These are some links to the webpage, (red) and some downloadable pdf files (yellow).  If it doesn’t work, you get a full refund.

Dan SiegelElle MindSight NeuralBuddists Audience Shambhala

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Posted in Cosmos with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 22, 2010 by ellocogringo

The above image is a visualization of GOD, click to see whad GOD looks like.  It is also a visualization of the universe.  They are, after all, the same thing.

Why do you think you must make a choice between an intrinsic perception of the universe and an intrinsic perception of god? we can use the word god if you prefer, with the caveat that i use the word god to express an intrinsic perception and GOD to describe the extrinsic. I maintain that religion is just a concept we put into words to describe our perception (god) of GOD. As I stated with physics I am not talking theology here but only our perception of GOD. (in this case) with there being no actual distinction between GOD and the universe. The distinction is inside the skull only. your previous discussion has centered on the “physics” perception of the universe. You have now switched to the “theological” perception of the universe. (or GOD if you prefer, same thing) In this communication you are confusing a perception of GOD (god) for GOD in the same sense that mainstream physics is confusing our perception of the universe (physics) for the universe. Using religion to get an understanding of GOD is fine as long as it is understood, that it is not GOD but only our perception and interpretation. with god being the perception and religion being the interpretation. there are three things happening two inside the skull and one outside. this is an enigma only because the ABF forces an either/or choice. the distinction you make between physics and religion is artificial. The minds work the same way no matter what we’re thinking of.  Brain Fart BF visuals
this is pretty good, actually, I feel a post coming on. i’ll anonymize it.

Exactly, the built in logic flaw in the brain. This guy is smart. It took me years to see that.

Bottom up

Posted in TD/BU with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on July 22, 2010 by ellocogringo



DrB-19 09/12/2009

top down, bottom up, psyche, logos, mythos, einstein, yin, yang, cosmos, ether, aether

You had asked why I wasn’t content to let people think in whatever way they were comfortable with. I have no problem with reductionist thinking, I have a problem with using reductionist thinking EXCLUSIVELY for scientific inquiry. It doesn’t discover new concepts. Bottom up thinking is dismissed as hunches or guesses, not as the intuition it is. It leads to absurdities like psychology, for instance or voodoo. Top Down is a shortcut method of thinking. It precludes NEW concepts. This is the way an animal thinks. It can only rearrange and categorize existing known concepts. It is what makes people dumb. There is more, but that’s enough.

Consider: Scientific method: A process that is the basis for scientific inquiry. The scientific method follows a series of steps: (1) identify a problem you would like to solve, (2) formulate a hypothesis, (3) test the hypothesis, (4) collect and analyze the data, (5) make conclusions.
Hypothesis:1. a proposition, or set of propositions, set forth as an explanation for the occurrence of some specified group of phenomena.
An hypothesis is nothing more than a proposed conclusion, a pre-supposition.. (a guess) So essentially you start with a conclusion, then try to prove it false or true and declare it true based on the results. Thus it is circular in nature. Perfectly suitable for making decisions based on “knowns”. Consider the nature of knowledge. One perspective is there are things you know, things you don’t know, things you know you don’t know, AND THINGS YOU KNOW THAT AIN’T SO. IE part of this logic tree depends on belief and not fact.

Consider: DNA. For years geneticists had been studying the genetic structure as if DNA were total and complete fact. Then, here come epigenitics. Oops! The concept of DNA was WRONG. IE they knew something that “wasn’t so”. DNA was never “tested” for validity. (and it CAN’T be tested using the scientific method) It was only true AS FAR AS IT WENT. It was incomplete. It was a n-truth and not a p-truth. The scientific method could never have caught this (and didn’t, the discovery was serendipitous). Now if I’m a plumber, and don’t care, accepting DNA as a p-truth is fine. BUT if I’m a geneticist doing research, using the scientific method is absurd.

Consider: Ardi, the newly discovered hominid fossil. For years anthropologists had been working under the assumption than man evolved from chimps. Seems right. WRONG!!! Chimps evolved from hominids. It was an n-truth, not a p-truth. (This is awkward, I’m going to have to change all my Charlie Chimp references to Ardi Australopithecus Africanus, doesn’t really roll of the tongue does it?)

Consider: relativity, for years physicists have been doing math on the assumption that time was real, and not a mental construct. And they still are. The are making another false assumption that math dictates physics. It does not. The math is not the physics. It only describes it. If reality and math disagree, the math is wrong, not reality.

In short, when using the scientific method the question “what if they’re all full of shit” is never asked.

Consider: Heylighen, he is using bottom thinking to look at the problems of “gifted people” IE he is gathering (and verifying) the data THEN will see where it leads. He doesn’t start with the conclusion. (gifted people are bi-polar manic depressive) He will come up with a conclusion which is “less wrong” than psychology’s.
How did this happen? Why have scientists forgotten how to ask why? Let’s look at the educational system. What is it’s purpose? To educate? WRONG. The purpose of the educational system to get the students to perform well on tests (to get increased funding, prestige, gravitas) in a limited time frame. Thus beliefs (n-truths) are presented as (and accepted as) facts. This is what I call the lattice, a block on challenging dogma. Thus the concept of reductionist thinking as being the only valid method of inquiry is carried by the students into life. (This is what I call dumb). If the issue is important, dogma must be challenged. It’s as if you cut out the right hemisphere. My education was somewhat unique, most easily summed up by quoting Bro. Max “We can’t teach you, we can only show you how to learn”. This goes to purpose. The purpose of the Benedictine order is to enlighten students, not to get them to pass tests. Big difference. This is only one of the impediments to understanding.

When listening to someone, an alarm bell frequently goes off (alarmingly frequently) “this guy is full of shit”. (he’s an idiot) I interpret this as the left hemisphere and the right hemisphere being in disagreement. The wire to this alarm bell has been cut in most people and the input is dismissed. In a sense you could view the right hemisphere as a bullshit detector. It flags discrepancies in the logic of top-down and bottom up thinking.

This goes to the heart of my problem, people assume that if they don’t understand me it is because I’m crazy, when the truth is they don’t understand me because they’re dumb.
Read the attached file by Paul Grobstein. (Getting it less wrong, the brains way) He’s right. (he’s not an idiot) non-idiots are depressingly few in this society. Paul Grobstein


Body Language

Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 21, 2010 by ellocogringo

Body Language

Don’t worry about it. Only an uncentered person needs to worry about learning body language. Just trust your instincts. The only thing you need to be aware of is activity on the right side of the body, especially eyes, indicates activity in the left hemisphere and the reverse. Concentrate on reading the person rather than analyzing him. Dilated pupils indicate “input mode” (open)

One of the problems with being uncentered, is that the right mind is shut down, crippling this natural ability.  My ex-brother who is an idiot, intelligent, but an idiot nonetheless, would spend hours practicing body language in front of a mirror.  It may fool an idiot, but to a centered it looks contrived.  He thinks that steppling his fingers makes him look wise, for instance.  He would practice how long to pause to synthesize the appearance of considering a question.  He’d practice in front of me, for instance,  “what do you think?”   “looks like you’re lying, why don’t you tell the truth and just let your body language handle it” “well, there’s certain points I want to emphasize” “well, if you have to lie to emphasize them, maybe they don’t need emphasis”

Body language is unique to each individual, it is not something contrived, but something you put on like clothes.  A persona that sets you apart from all others.  If the persona doesn’t fit it is obvious.

I have identical twin nieces, who even their mother can’t tell apart.  They even swapped boyfriends on a date once and the deception wasn’t noticed.  This seemed odd to me as they seemed quite distinct in appearance.  I did notice however, that when sleeping I couldn’t tell them apart.  They took off their persona to sleep.  Hmm!

I still don’t understand how people can confuse twins.  They walk different, talk different, hold their mouth different, squint their eyes different.  They are each distinct unto themselves.  I can only surmise that this natural non-verbal communication has been crippled by idiocy.  How odd.  Here’s a site if you’re curious, there’s a bunch but remember body language is unique to each individual,  if the persona fits, wear it.  body signals


Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 21, 2010 by ellocogringo

Sajid Kahn

‘You can if you think you can’ is essential for success but not enough to succeed. One needs to learn the ropes of life to succeed.

Current conventional wisdom would have us believe that we operate in a vacuum.  Society doesn’t exist and the sub-conscious is psychotic.  There is no room for the self.  By our current mind model our understanding of our self is incomplete. Psychology is only dealing with one part of a three part phenomenon.  This creates its own enormous problems. As we cannot fully describe the self how can we know, understand and become our true sell? All universities know that the holy grail of education is self mastery yet they stay away from even researching it let alone teach it. This is because under the present mind model it is impossible to define the self within the paradigm of science. As a result mainstream education stays away from teaching the super mature mind level as the super mature mind level involves teaching about the self. Ignoring the premature and super mature mind stages has resulted in the current mess in the world. This ignorance affects/effects everything. Let’s see how it shows up in America that has the most advanced cutting edge education in the world. We brain wash our kids into believing that they are the best instead of building up their real confidence by making them learn the ropes. As a result our kids grow up feeling more confident than what they are capable of. We set them up for depression and constant running for more and more. We teach our kids ‘You can if you think you can’. ‘You can if you think you can’ is essential but not enough to succeed. Learned confidence is the only real confidence.

True, true, true. That’s why psychology is silly



Wizard of id

Posted in About Me with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 21, 2010 by ellocogringo


Stupid is Forever

You can’t fix stupid


There are smart people and there are dumb people.

Dumb people who think they’re smart 80%
Smart people who think they’re dumb 10%
Dumb people who know they’re dumb 5%
Smart people who know they’re smart 1%
Then there’s stupid, you can’t fix stupid 4%

Kleptocracy; Government run by thieves.
Truth to a lawyer is a variable.
Life’s a bitch, then you die.
Shit happens.

The Roots of Evil
Wealth without work,
Pleasure without conscience,
Knowledge without character,
Commerce without morality,
Science without humanity,
Worship without sacrifice,
Politics without principles.

The best extemporaneous statements are those carefully rehearsed.
Time is natures way of keeping everything from happening at once.


Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 21, 2010 by ellocogringo

The need to be alone


Sometimes it’s just nice to be alone.  To be alone without being lonely.  To get away from the crazys.   To have no goal, no agenda, nothing pressing.  We live in a crazy world and sometimes I need to back off and just wonder at the insanity.

“My passionate sense of social justice and social responsibility has always contrasted oddly with my pronounced lack of need for direct contact with other human beings and human communities. I am truly a ‘lone traveler’ and have never belonged to my country, my home, my friends, or even my immediate family, with my whole heart; in the face of all these ties, I have never lost a sense of distance and a need for solitude…”

“A question that sometimes drives me hazy:am I or are the others crazy ?” ~ Albert Einstein

“I believe that the more time we spend choosing to run the deep inner peace circuitry of our right hemispheres, the more peace we will project into the world and the more peaceful our planet will be. And I thought that was an idea worth spreading.” – Jill Bolte

“A human being is part of the whole called by us universe (right mind perception ) … We experience ourselves, our thoughts and feelings as something separate from the rest. A kind of optical delusion of consciousness.(left mind interpretation )

“Reality is an illusion…albeit a persistent one”…Albert Einstein

Thank goodness I was never sent to school; it would have rubbed off some of the originality.~Beatrix Potter

Creativity is the sudden cessation of stupidity.~Edwin Land

Your theory is crazy, but it’s not crazy enough to be true.~Niels Bohr

Sir Ken Robinson

Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 21, 2010 by ellocogringo

Letter to Sir Ken

Dear Sir Ken,

I ran across your talk on Stumble and was blown away. I went to the TED site and had my mind boggled, ( and I have a high boggle threshold). I was like the dancer you spoke of walking into the dance class and finding “a room full of people like me”. I am cursed with exceptional cognitive ability so debilitating that I went into seclusion 30 years ago to avoid having to deal with idiots. (99+% of the population). Non-idiots are few and far between, particularly among “experts”. I am unaware of any experts who are not idiots. I am not more intelligent, I just have greater cognitive ability.
To your talk, the problem is much deeper and more pervasive than just deemphasizing art in school. The educational system has destroyed creativity, particularly in the soft sciences. Reductionist thinking has been imprinted on the right hemisphere, thus negating the natural synergistic ability of the mind. It is more than the emphasis on art, the method of teaching must be changed so as to not cripple this innate synergistic ability.
This despite the numerous studies that show students learn chemistry better when taught by a chemist, or physics by a physicist, or history by a historian. Instead they use “professional” teachers which are trained to crush creativity. This is not just stupidity (although there is that too) on the part of the educators, there is a conscious effort to demolish the intuitive ability of the mind by idiots who feel that constructionist thinking has no place in academia. It’s backwards. They have destroyed the ability of the students to use creativity in their thinking, even in the hard sciences. They leave school knowing something that “ain’t so”.
Physics has gone off the deep end since Einstein. All physics since has been based on two flawed experiments. I’ve got the particle decay problem figured out, and I’m working on the two slot experiment. I hope to be done before I die, but then, who would I tell?
It also extends beyond education into social, religious, financial, philosophical, psychological domains. There are so many ways to be dumb, and only one way to be smart.
In a peculiar serendipity, I ran across a non-idiot psychologist. It’s like sticking my hand in my pocket and pulling out a live purple rhinoceros with yellow polka dots. I didn’t know such a thing could exist. She is helping me put my concepts, which are quite simple in my mind, into words which explode into meaningless irrelevancies using reductionist thinking.
What would the world look like with 1000 Leonardo da Vinci’s, or a million, or a billion? How many are spending their lives in menial occupations, or are institutionalized, or in seclusion? Idiots will be idiots, that’s what they’re best at. Why can’t they just leave the mind alone?
I’ve been to Stratford on Avon, it was bucolic when I was there, probably strip malls, parking lots and McMansions now.

Truth is simple and beautiful, Deceit is devious and ugly

Sir Ken Robinson


Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , on July 21, 2010 by ellocogringo

letter to DrB

Obsessive/Compulsive Disorder

A group can only deal with the symptoms, not the problem.

I do have some thoughts I’d like to share on the problem itself. After all, sometimes I’m a pretty fart smeller. It could be a healthy mind performing abnormally, or an unhealthy mind. (of course that’s true of everyone you encounter, isn’t it) If you’re talking an unhealthy mind, it’s dopazene time and they can go to the group to learn to deal with the side-effects. (that was easy, wasn’t it?)

First we’ll look at a healthy mind behaving normally as I see it. Pick someone at random that we both know, say, Dr. B. (yes, I checked you out, I’m not going to entrust my mind to an idiot. I may be crazy but I’m not dumb) Centered, Check; FIFO flushes (Hippocampus) check, dominant algorithm Dr. B, sub-dominant Teresa, stimuli pass through sub-dominant and are fielded by dominant, check (amylgada test 1); laterals seamlessly check (amylgada test 2) Yup, she’ll work.

I did some research on obsessive compulsive behavior. Just the definition, past that the discussion turned to bullshit. As I understand (it in my terms) stimuli are being fielded by both algorithms (kind of the reverse of multiple personality disorder) unlikely though but possible dopazene time

The second shows promise for a QD Fix. It may be that the dominant algorithm is fielding the stimuli and instead of dealing with it is sending it to the sub-dominant algorithm which then exhibits inappropriate behavior. If I am correct in my understanding of the problem, this would mean that there are two points of attack. The inappropriate lateral from the dominant to the sub-dominant, and the inappropriate behavior of the sub-dominant.

Bear in mind you listening to a crazy person, whose mind is not as sharp as it used to be, has no experience and only an amateurs interest in psychology.

If I am correct so far (a big if), and if by talking to this person I could confirm this. I might want to consider modifying the sub-dominant decision point. For instance, change 20 iterations to 10.  IF that works, the door is open and you need to do some SERIOUS thinking about what to do next.

Obsessive compulsive


Posted in About Me with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 21, 2010 by ellocogringo


The simplest way I can describe the difference between my mind and the majority, is that mine does not automatically reject data that does not meet preconceived criteria. For normal people this non-considered data is not just dismissed, it is violently rejected. A defense mechanism on steroids. They also cannot hear the dog that didn’t bark. Arthur Conan Doyle spoke of this in his Sherlock Holmes story “Silver Blaze”

Sherlock “then there was the curious incident of the dog in the nighttime”

Inspector”But there was no incident with the dog”

Sherlock”Yes, exactly, that was the curious incident”

(actually I like TS Elliot’s version better)

People do not seem to have trouble understanding this as a singular event. However they can not expand the concept. i.e. if A doesn’t happen then B is not true. Or correlate it with seemingly unrelated (to them) data.

Example; Men read the headlines, women read the small print. Headline in paper “Sadistic murderer savaging streets of Bessimer” a man will grab his gun, a woman will read on and say “hey, wait a minute, it says here that the Little Theater is staging a play on Jack the Ripper” This is as is should be, an an immediate response to imminent danger tempered by a targeted insight. This is the symbiotic relationship between the male and female viewpoints. This is the importance of coupling and why it is essential to civilization.

With a typical male reaction I have been attacking the abyss in a one on one fashion without seeing the

big picture. While I’ve been 100% successful in my battles, there are 6 billion people and only one of me. And I’m losing ground. I had two data points me, and the abyss. Reading the Fountainhead, gave me the third data point, the beast. I read the headlines, she read the fine print.


(before I forget, (my minds going) a good sideslip is;

Truth flies like an arrow

Love flies like a sparrow

Fruit flies like a banana

And enabled me to triangulate the problem. Had I told her about the abyss, she would have had the other half of her problem solved. She used to fall asleep crying after reading her reviews because no one understood. Although the reviews were, for the most part, glowing with praise, she’s right. No one understood, just a bunch of idiots and assholes pretending to be human. I can relate. I will write a review for her. She deserves a peer review.

The QD fix works. If you want to view it a a parlor trick that mysteriously works. Thats OK. If you want to call it the de-confabulator or the neo-fritifrail thats OK. Perhaps a new school of psychology will form. You’ll have thesis papers (Analysis of the termination of the flying fritifrail expressed in contra injudicated derivatives of the de-confabulator (this is what psychology sounds like to me, they haven’t got a clue, it’s hinky)) and Nobel prizes given. And they’ll all be full of shit. It is not necessary that you understand how the QD Fix works. It is only necessary that you know that it works. Maybe you can wrap it up in psychobabble that the idiots can understand. I can’t. How do you explain a Picasso to a blind person?

OK lets start with light, the sun emits photons

what’s the sun, whats a photon?”

Just trust me for the moment,

No hand me the sun so I can feel it”

Can’t do that

OK, then hand me a photon”

Can’t do that either

You’re crazy, get out of here with your metaphysical bullshit”

And we haven’t even gotten to the part about how the photons impact on the cones and rods in the eyes, which is converted into a wavelength by the mind, spread out in a spectrum for easy interpretation, and slid forward ½ second so the perception is real time.

A person who can see looks at the picture reads the sign under it and that’s it. Nothing needs to be said. Even if he’s illiterate you can point at it and say “that’s a Picasso”. It is obvious and self evident.

People do not understand how profound a simple concept can be. E=MC squared for instance unfolds into 2 blackboards full of equations which describe the basic relationship of mass and energy in the universe. People plug in the numbers (do the math) come out with some answers and think they understand the physical universe. They do not. The math is not the physics. The math only describes the physics. The genius is in the concept, not in the math. The genius used math to demonstrate to the idiots how his concept could be viewed. When asked “It is said that only three people understand your theories.” He answered “Hmmm… and who might that third person be?” Since Einstein the concept of physics has gone seriously awry. There are people who are proclaimed to be giants in the field of advancing on Einsteins theories. They are not. They are idiots. In one of my dreams (I used to dream occasionally until I started taking atenenol, then I started dreaming a lot. So I turned them off, they’re mostly boring.) Which brings up another point, if people are bothered by nightmares, why don’t they just turn them off? Sorry if I’m rambling, I need to write things down as I think of them. In any case in one of my dreams I came up with a poem of the failings of post-Einstein physics.

The time has come Dreamweaver said,

To speak of many things

Of whereness and whenness and gravity wells

Of white holes, lifts and strings

(purloined from Alice, there is a lot of profundity in Alice)

for instance Humpty Dumpty said,

A word means exactly what I intend it to mean, no more, no less”

When I say “You are not an idiot” I mean exactly that no more, no less. It is not a compliment. It is a fact.

When I told the judge he was an asshole. It was not an insult, it was a fact.


Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 20, 2010 by ellocogringo


“ethics is not cheating at solitare” – el Loco Gringo

It’s doing the right thing when no one is watching.   This is different than honesty, which is doing the right thing when someone is watching. Or maybe because someone is watching.

Religion’s monopoly in the field of ethics has made it extremely difficult to communicate the emotional meaning and connotations of a rational view of life. Just as religion has preempted the field of ethics, turning morality against man, so it has usurped the highest moral concepts of our language, placing them outside this earth and beyond man’s reach. “Exaltation” is usually taken to mean an emotional state evoked by contemplating the supernatural. “Worship” means the emotional experience of loyalty and dedication to something higher than man. “Reverence” means the emotion of a sacred respect, to be experienced on one’s knees. “Sacred” means superior to and not-to-be-touched-by any concerns of man or of this earth. Etc. “yet these words can be very accurate if one strips away the religious overtones, Walt”

It does not matter that only a few in each generation will grasp and achieve the full reality of man’s proper stature–and that the rest will betray it. It is those few that move the world and give life its meaning–and it is those few that I have always sought to address. The rest are no concern of mine; it is not me or The Fountainhead that they will betray: it is their own souls. (the un-locked Walt)

“To me–it’s being left, unarmed, in a sealed cell with a drooling beast of prey or a maniac who’s had some disease that’s eaten his brain out. You’d have nothing then but your voice–your voice and your thought. You’d scream to that creature why it should not touch you, you’d have the most eloquent words, the unanswerable words, you’d become the vessel of the absolute truth. And you’d see living eyes watching you and you’d know that the thing can’t hear you, that it can’t be reached, not reached, not in any way, yet it’s breathing and moving there before you with a purpose of its own. That’s horror. Well, that’s what’s hanging over the world, prowling somewhere through mankind, that same thing, something closed, mindless, utterly wanton, but something with an aim and a cunning of its own. I don’t think I’m a coward, but I’m afraid of it. And that’s all I know–only that it exists. I don’t know its purpose, I don’t know its nature.” (I do “Taboo” Walt)

“Now you see how difficult it is to discuss these things when our entire language is the language of individualism, with all its terms and superstitions. identity’–it’s an illusion, you know. But you can’t build a new house out of crumbling old bricks. You can’t expect to understand me completely through the medium of present-day conceptions. We are poisoned by the superstition of the ego. We cannot know what will be right or wrong in a selfless society, nor what we’ll feel, nor in what manner. ”

“Money is the barometer of a society’s virtue…when you see corruption being rewarded and honesty becoming a self-sacrifice—you may know that your society is doomed” (Rand, 2002).

Alice in wonderland

“I can’t believe that!” said Alice.
“Can’t you?” the Queen said in a pitying tone. “Try again: draw a long breath, and shut your eyes.”
Alice laughed. “There’s no use trying,” she said: “one can’t believe impossible things.”
“I daresay you haven’t had much practice,” said the Queen. “When I was your age, I always did it for half-an-hour a day. Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.” (I am asking people to believe the impossible, Walt)


“It is not the works, but the belief which is here decisive and determines the order of rank–to employ once more an old religious formula with a new and deeper meaning,–it is some fundamental certainty which a noble soul has about itself, something which is not to be sought, is not to be found, and perhaps, also, is not to be lost.–The noble soul has reverence for itself.–” (Friedrich
Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil.)

“There are two types of people in the world. Centered and un-Centered. The centered have substance, a belief system that is central to who they are. It may be self esteem, it may be religion, it may be an innate sense of good and evil. They have an internal compass to show them a direction in life. They have goals, aspirations and dreams. They are a joy to be around.

el Loco Gringo

The un-centered frighten me, I don’t know where they are coming from. Instead of a center, There is an abyss, a hole in the soul, if you will. No matter what arguments you use, no matter the facts, logic, morality etc. All attempts at communication fall into the abyss. They pretend to be human. They are the living un-dead. They are zombies. A walking caricature of a human that wants to eat my brain.

There are two types of zombies, assholes and idiots. They form a symbiotic relationship in which the assholes beat the shit out of the idiots, and the idiots allow themselves to get the shit beat out of them. It is an obscene perversion of humanity”

Using the 80/20 rule out of a sample of 100
There is one un-locked and centered (- taboo)
19 centered (locked)
20 assholes (locked)
60 idiots (locked)

That’s what troubles me about dealing with idiots.  Their actions are situational.  It depend on what they estimate their chances of being caught are.   A centered, in contrast, can always be depended on to do the right thing, to not steal and to cheat on their taxes (which I consider to be the moral obligation of all Americans)


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The Ghost in your Genes

I have made frequent references to imprinting.

Lattice – Block on constructivist thinking. Imposed by education to force conformist thinking.

Taboo – on pride. Imposed by religion and upbringing. Imposes subservience.

Centering – has been disrupted by the efforts of others to control us

Misogyny – Discourages “woman think”

Brain Fart – Combination of the above

Now I’ll discuss what I think is happening.  Please note, I could be wrong and am certainly incomplete. There is a critical period in a childs development when any input is accepted as truth, permanently.  This forms what I refer to as a Neuron Trellis that bypasses the thought process in emergency situations. It also forms a framework for social skills, language, mores etc. Once the critical period is past, a “prune and trim” operation is begun which reduces the number of brain cells from 300,000,000 in a child to around 100,000,000 in an adult.  (use ’em or loose  ’em)  So the neural pathways become “hard wired”  A concept which does not fit within this framework is impossible.  IE if we haven’t been imprinted with the language framework the concept of language is impossible to comprehend.  Or a spider will ALWAYS elicit a reflex.  Makes sense from an evolutionary point of view.  Anyone who didn’t have an uncontrolable urge to “be somewhere else quickly” would be removed from the gene pool if attacked by a lion.   A  pretty universal  imprint is the incest tabooA really good culprit in this would appear to be epigenitics, where decreased levels of cortisol trigger genetic changes which can be passed from generation to generation.  Also new research from Israel seems to indicate that injections of cortisol may be able to break the link.  The doctors at the VA are unaware of this. (start with part 4 where 1 year old kids are described with PTSD)

The Ghost in your Genes Part 1 2 3 4 5 Epigenetics – The new biology DNA is not destiny DNA Dimmer Short version; It may be possible to “fix” PTSD Gotta be careful what we tell our kids, it is forever. Psychological ramifications see here> Trauma Transformation Veterans

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The Oracle

Musing – Contemplation; meditation. – Free Dictionary
Muse – Absorbed in one’s thoughts
Muse – (n) a seer
Muse – Greek Mythology Any of the nine daughters of Mnemosyne and Zeus, each of whom presided over a different art or science.
Calliope>Epic poetry>Writing tablet
Erato>Lyric poetry> Cithara
Melpomene>Tragedy>Tragic mask
Polyhymnia>Choral>poetry Veil
Thalia>Comedy>Comic mask
Urania>Astrology>Globe and compass
Delphic oracle, the most important oracle in the classical Greek world, The oracle consulted with the muses to answer questions of importance.
I am going to use the word musing for what is happening in the right mind, thinking isn’t really appropriate. Do you notice the close correlation between what the muses did and what we think we know of the right hemisphere? (taking into account the culture differences)
I don’t think the muses were myth in the strictest sense of the word. And there really were oracles. I posit that the muses were a mental framework (similar to the ANN) that the oracles used to do bottom up thinking. (I think that an oracle was, in fact, a person capable of bottom up thinking)
Posit – to lay down or assume as a fact or principle
If true, I am the Maylene Muse.
When I get curious about something, the answers start coming. I may be full of shit, but it sets the algorithms, (top down thinking) for better or worse, with the best answer to date.
As far as the right mind is concerned, the point of all this is that there is no point. There is no goal, no conclusion, no target, no “scientific method”. When I get curious about something my right hemisphere starts “free associating” with the contents. It doesn’t assume anything. And there’s a lot there. The entire universe (As I have perceived it) Every thing I have seen, experienced, felt, thought, heard is there. All knowledge that I have ever acquired is there. This is what is not working in most peoples minds. This is the insight, the epiphany, the bullshit detector. This is the way the mind is supposed to work. And it has been crippled. The wires have been cut to the light bulb. And the muses are dismissed as myth. This cutting causes the beast, the hollow man, the abyss, the superficial man, the p-zombie or whatever term you wish to use. A cultural lobotomy. What would society be like with a thousand da Vincis, a million, a billion, 6 billion? Maybe there will be a 100th monkey happening.
Nice pictures here> Golden Muses
And a nice take here> Apollo29



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The problem in using top down thinking is the cascade effect. The unintended consequences. The treatment of a problem as if it existed in a vacume without a connection to the greater whole. It has a multiplier effect. A built in positive feedback loop. It is the insane belief that we can resolve a problem if we do more of what caused it in the first place

For Instance the solution to a societal problem is seen as oppression. If it doesn’t work (and it won’t) even more oppression is applied until the situation spins out of control.

In physics, the solution is seen as analysis. If this doesn’t resolve the issue (and it won’t) even more analysis is applied until you end up with bizarre byzantine labryniths of illogic that only a lunatic can understand.

It’s like a bank. If you overdraw your account they want more of what they already know you ain’t got none of. How insane is that?

It’s like taking a pixel out of the above graphic and trying to determine what’s going to happen without considering the inter-connectness. It is the pattern that must be figured out, the relationship between the cell and the whole.

In this case these rules are

  1. Any live cell with fewer than two live neighbours dies, as if caused by under-population.
  2. Any live cell with more than three live neighbours dies, as if by overcrowding.
  3. Any live cell with two or three live neighbours lives on to the next generation.
  4. Any dead cell with exactly three live neighbours becomes a live cell, as if by reproduction.

Even in this case figuring that out by looking at only one cell is impossible. You may increase the odds of prediction with some formula which idiots view as progress, approaching understanding. But it is illusory. If you look at the connectedness, however, it is possible to figure out the rules. THEN, you can set the shortcut. You can say “AHA, I’ve seen that, that’s Gonway’s game of life the rules are 1,2,3,4. That’s a gosper gun by the way. When the rules are figured out there won’t be any of this percentages shit. You will know EXACTLY what the cell is going to do.

The patterns playing out are determined by initial conditions. which in this case is a Gosper Gun. setting these cells true will result in the performance of the graphic above left. Here’s some more if you’re curious. wiki

Here’s another day and night. This is a big one. The anotated rules are here D&N. Try figuring this sucker out just looking at one cell. Lot’s a luck. Look at the one on top, it’s got 3 variables. (4 dimensional mathematically) But it’s still doable if you look at the connectness.

This is what I mean by working the logic both ways. The aggregate and accumulate reciprocal relationship between the individual cells and the whole. Changing any one pixel will yield “a disturbance in the force” (the pattern ain’t gonna be the same)

The Lotus Eaters

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“An idiot by any other name, would be as dumb” – eLG


Mythology In Greek mythology, the lotus-eaters (Greek λωτοφάγοι, lōtophagoi), also referred to as the lotophagi or lotophaguses (singular lotophagus, pronounced /ləˈtɒfəɡəs/) or lotophages (singular lotophage, pronounced /ˈloʊtəfeɪdʒ/), were a race of people from an island near North Africa dominated by lotus plants. The lotus fruits and flowers were the primary food of the island and were narcotic and addictive, causing the people to sleep in peaceful apathy.

The lotus eaters by Alfred Tennyson

The mariners are put into an altered state when they eat the lotos. During this time, they are isolated from the world:[4]

The mariners explain that they want to leave reality and their worldly cares:[4]

The mariners demonstrate that they realize what actions they are committing and the potential results that will follow, but they believe that

Although the mariners are isolated from the world, they are connected in that they act in unison. This relationship continues until the very end

Yup, he’s talking about idiot’s alright. Particularly this line “they are connected in that they act in unison”. This, as far as I can see, is about 80% of the population. So eating lotus pedals is the same as the modern “Drinking the Kool-Aid” becoming a firm believer in something: accepting an argument or philosophy wholeheartedly or blindly. The term originated with the Jonestown Massacre,

For disambiguation I include the following from wikipedia

An idiot, dolt, or dullard is a mentally deficient person, or someone who acts in a self-defeating or significantly counterproductive way. More humorous synonyms of the term include addlehead, blockhead, bonehead, deadhead, dimwit, dodo, dope, dummy, dunderhead, nincompoop, ninny, nitwit, numbskull, stupidhead, thickhead, and twit, among many others. Archaically the word mome has also been used. The synonymous terms moron, imbecile, and cretin have all gained specialized meanings in modern times. An idiot is said to be idiotic, and to suffer from idiocy. A dunce is an idiot who is specifically incapable of learning. An idiot differs from a fool (who is unwise) and an ignoramus (who is uneducated/ an ignorant), neither of which refer to someone with low intelligence.

I would like to add to this list, terms I have heard to describe idiots; stupidos, parrots, zombies, golems, 2d, hollow, second-handers, superficialists, normals, hipostatized or in more general terms ideologists. I prefer the traditional word idiot, however, We are, after all, striving to be professionals, and not pejorative.

Square Earth

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Thanx to Mr. Ted

we westerners, with all our clever logicalness, are getting very fancy in our answers and still totally miss what’s really going on. political shows on television are amazingly full of energy over bullshit arguments. what are they grappling with? maybe ‘differences’, the ghosts of departed quantities.

we believe in the past because we believe in absolute space. (i know, … this is generalization). not only that but we believe that space is rectangular. if we walk along any one of the three orthogonal axis, we ‘go away’ in ‘one direction’ and never come back. if we have a clock with us, we say that our footsteps that we laid down behind us are always in the past.

but we live on earth, on the surface of a sphere and so our footsteps (actions) taken in the past are also in front of us. ‘my future is my past’ is a line from an old blues song where the broken-hearted jilted lover can’t let go of his old flame and hopes that they could get back together in the future. only in absolute, rectangular space do you leave your past actions totally behind you. on the surface of the earth, a boat that circles the world will bump into the garbage he jettisoned off the back of his ship months ago.

poincare said we should think about ‘topology’ when we inquire into ‘complexity’ rather than ‘cause’. imagine if the earth had a very small circumference so that we could walk around it more quickly (this is just to make something that already happens ‘pop out’ a bit more clearly). and supposing the earth was crowded with circumnavigating walkers and the surface was soft and muddy (to better visualize the amerindian ‘tread lightly ethic’). everyone’s footprints would be woven beneath and over everyone elses. the earth would have a ‘topography’ (landscape) made of footprints. the hills and valleys, the bumps and potholes would be ‘made of footsteps’. we would be the co-evolvers of the landscape we were included in. if we ‘acknowledged’ this, would we not be like the wildgeese and let the shapes that we co-tease out of the mud orchestrate our behaviour? would we not step so as to smooth the hard rims of potholes as they developed, round off the bumps and cultivate gently rising and descending paths on the big hill like bulges ad valley like holes.

what would inform our experience as we participated in this co-evolution would not be like conventional thought because we would ‘do it first’ and try to make sense of it later (later we might form an architectural committee and give names to all the features and argue about ‘their’ development plans). initially, we would quite naturally step so as to improve the aesthetic/harmonious form of the land. that is, spatial harmonies naturally orchestrate our individual and collective behaviour. if the wildgeese are capable of this, why not man? (all things seem to be in the service of cultivating balance, even revolutionaries).

BUT! … in our western culture, everyone, INSTEAD, wants to ‘make a difference’. that’s what the chancellor says at university graduation commencement ceremonies; ‘go out there and make a difference’. every day the western person asks himself how much of the difference between the way things are in the present and the way they were in the immediate past has their causal-agent ‘john henry’ on it, whether they judge it to be ‘good’ or ‘bad’.

but the co-evolving topography on the small-circumference planet could not be split down into ‘who did what’. in the same way, the mutually orbiting bodies in the solar system don’t know who is contributing what because they are moving under one another’s simultaneous mutual influence and that’s not solvable for three or more bodies (the ‘three body problem’ that poincare continued to work on till he died has never been solved, but poincare figured it could be the foundation for an entirely new and different ‘system’).

the ‘topology’ (geometric relationships) of people walking on a spherical surface such as our planet is the same regardless of the circumference. not until the radius of curvature goes to infinity does it no longer happen that our past and future are bound up in the present.

the topography we are co-evolving, that we are included in, is taking form very quietly. it is like john lennon’s imagery; ‘life is what happens while we’re busy making other plans’.

it is like the dog that did not bark in the night; its silence is deafening.


Moral Compass

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Many e-acolytes implore me; “Show me the way, sublime and serene celestial sailor, nebulous navigator of the netherworld” Show you the way? Hell, I don’t even know where you’re at*. Go to Mapquest and punch in the zip code. Once you’ve done an emotional enema to clear the crap out of your mind, come back here and read on.

Look around, decide where YOU want to go, not where someone else wants you to go. A good rule of thumb is “If someone claims they can show you the way, they can’t” Avoid them they are only trying to fill their own abyss, they are assholes. This is your mind, evolved/created for you and you alone. Do not allow anyone else to occupy rent free space in your mind. Remember the immortal words of the great mentalist Dan Quayle “A mind is a terrible thing to lose”

Do I have any suggestions? Only one, a kernel that can be nurtured ;

“You are a child of the universe, no less that the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here.”

Past that, you’re on your own, take control of your life, do not be a slave to others. Take your time, Choose carefully. Be gentle with yourself. It has been a long time since you could think for yourself. It will take awhile to relearn. It would be immoral of me to try to influence your thinking. I would just be another asshole then wouldn’t I?

Seek the “key of ANN”

*someone complained about my using a preposition at the end of the sentence. Append asshole at the above star if you are offended.






Bipolar Manic/Depression

Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 28, 2010 by ellocogringo

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Manic/Depression Disorder or Genius?

I may be crazy, but everyone else is insane” – el Loco Gringo

Bipolar is a counterfeit concept.  It is a word used by idiots to describe something they don’t understand giving them the delusional belief that they understand what is going on.  They do not.  The idea that one can reverse engineer the mind to understand the root causes of behavior strikes me as idiocy, bordering on insanity.

I’ve always been crazy” – Waylon Jennings

One question that has always driven me hazy, am I crazy or is everyone else?” – Albert Einstein

This is directed to the mental health profession.  You’re idiots.  As a certifiable bipolar manic/depressionist. (I haven’t been caught yet) I’d like to give my take on the subject from the inside.

First of all, I’m in good company. Note the image of my personal hero Big Al.   A partial list in alphabetical order are; Ludwig Van Beethoven, Ludwig Boltzmann, Lord Byron, Winston Churchill, Charles Dickens, Richard Dryfuss, Patti Duke, Albert Einstein, Ralph Waldo Emerson. Carrie Fisher, F Scott Fitzgerald, Alexander Hamilton, Ernest Hemingway, Kay Redfield Jamison*, John Keats, Vivian Leigh, Isaac Newton, Florence Nightingale, Jane Pauley, Edgar Alan Poe, Mark Twain, Vincent van Goth, Kurt Vonnegut, Virginia Woolf. (I didn’t realize that bipolar was an available condition that long ago.) Since idiot psychologists have no problem with with ex-post facto diagnosis, I’ll add a few more to the list. Socrates, Homer Simson, Plato, Copernicus, Pliny, Galileo, Leonardo da Vinci. Goober, Mary Sommerville, Ayn Rand, Francois Mandelbrot. There are many contemporary bipolar/genius’. Since I don’t want to be responsible for them getting a net thrown over them and shot up with dopazine*, I’ll leave them un-named. In fact every great thinker who has avoided beheading, burning at the stake or being shot up with dopazine was and is bipolar. This does not preclude them having emotional problems like every one else. (which they are especially prone to because they have to live in a world full of idiots). Or as Waylon said above; they may be crazy, but that doesn’t mean they’re insane. As to Einstein’s quote. Yes, Big Al, every one else really is crazy.

Let’s look at the words;

Disorder – First it is not a disorder, nor a disease, nor are they possessed by demons, nor are they heretics. Nor are they metaphysical, nor mystic. “The devil did not make them do it”. They are not defective, although they can be convinced they are with enough idiot therapy.  They are not insane although they are certainly crazy in the sense that they do not think like the norm (idiots). In fact, one could say it is pathological to be well adjusted in this society. What they are capable of is viewing life from a different, more complete perspective.

Bipolar – I can certainly understand the mood swings from the elation of discovering a concept to depression at being unable to communicate this concept to idiots.

Manic – A state of heightened awareness, nirvana, whole-brain thinking, bottom up thinking. No assumptions are made and ALL possibilities are considered.

Depression – It’s not depression so much as incredibly extreme frustration at being unable to communicate with idiots.  They have “spun out” trying desperately to find a way to communicate.

“Symptoms” (It’s not a disease)

Cannot stay on topic, flits from subject to subject with no apparent connection or goal. – This is the bottom up thinking process in action. Musing, as opposed to thinking. This is how the right hemisphere works. It is necessary to communicate with another to gather the facts for the associations to be made in the right hemisphere for the left hemisphere to process. Only by communicating with another do the concepts become “real” IE necessary for interfacing with others. Remember, there are NO preconceived assumptions. ALL is considered. I’ve heard it described as rambling and incoherent.

Paranoid – That’s certainly true. Sometimes they are not paranoid enough and they get burned at the stake, beheaded or shot up with dopazine.

Attaches an exaggerated sense of importance to their concepts – Saving humanity from going extinct isn’t important? Who’s crazy now?

Often creates entire disciplines to support their delusional ideas – Well, whatcha gonna do when the “experts” are clueless?

Has their own lexicon – Yup, when there are no words available to express their concepts. There is a school of philosophy which posits that “having a concept for which a word does not exist is, in and of itself, insanity.” Who’s crazy now?

Unconsidered is the possibility that the reason the person making the diagnosis does not understand the BPD is that he/she is an idiot. I used to think that psychology was silly. I’ve upgraded that to barbaric. Instead of nurturing them, SOCIETY IS KILLING OFF THE GENIUS in the genius’s , the very people whose insight could enrich the life of mankind.  Dopazine in these cases only lowers the ability of the mind to that of the idiot who prescribes it.  In that sense, he becomes normal.  You’re not helping them, you’re making them dumb.  Psychology is a pseudo-science in the same class as Voodoo.  With the caveat that voodoo works better.  When a naked priestess dances around you, chanting and shaking her beads and rattles, it is definitely a mind altering experience.  I know, I’ve experienced both.

This is my mind, and mine alone. I like it just as it is. It has guided and protected me through a turbulent life. It has shown me the beauty and the ugliness of the world in all it’s glory and depravity. I have marveled at the richness of the world and the people in it. It has given me a most rewarding journey. It is a fine mind indeed. And I am proud of it, so very proud. It has served me well.” – el Loco Gringo


It is not we who are crazy

it is YOU!

el Loco Gringo pulls back the curtain

Granted, there can be chemical or harmonal imbalances, injury, emotional distress etc. but basically this is the underlying problem.

The Doorman

“You’re not making them better, you’re making them dumb” – Rufus May

“I work with people who get defined as ‘mentally ill’. But I don’t see them as having faulty brains and in need of strong medication. I believe madness and distress is a result of having been on the receiving end of various forms of social injustice.” – Rufus May

Emergence Awakening The mad psychologist Bipolar A-Z Mind Freedom Rufus May TheRealCause

The person who professes to be a person concerned with the well being of troubled people can “deeply listen”.  If the psychologist thinks of him/herself as a friend, albeit a professional paid friend.  Usually they do not want the answer, what they want is a “mirror” so they can find their own answer.   There is no difference in results between a PHD and a plumber who volunteers to help on the weekends.  The patient is the expert on the patient, not the psychologist.  It is the connectedness that matters.  The patient is not defective. Usually, he is only confused (or hazy as Einstein put it).   Be careful on passing judgement.  I’ve just passed mine.

el Loco Gringo pulled back the curtain

*Dopazine – generic term for any psychotropic drug that turns the patient into a dope

*Smartacide – kills off your smarts

Please don’t help me, I’ve done nothing wrong!

SoulTeacher Susan Polgar Bipolar_Sid


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the following paper by John R Platt


“Why should there be such rapid advances in some fields and not in others? I think the usual explanations that we tend to think of – such as the tractability of the subject, or the quality or education of the men drawn into it, or the size of research contracts – are important but inadequate. I have begun to believe that the primary factor in scientific advance is an intellectual one. These rapidly moving fields are fields where a particular method of doing scientific research is systematically used and taught, an accumulative method of inductive inference that is so effective that I think it should be given the name of “strong inference.” I believe it is important to examine this method, its use and history and rationale, and to see whether other groups and individuals might learn to adopt it profitably in their own scientific and intellectual work. “

“When whole groups of us begin to concentrate like that, I believe we may see the molecular-biology phenomenon repeated over and over again, with order-of-magnitude increases in the rate of scientific understanding in almost every field.”

Or the following paper by Paul Grobstein

“People in our culture, by and large, tend to presume that someone, somewhere knows what is “right,” and that each individual’s task is either to be that particular someone or to work as hard as they can to learn from that someone what “right” is … the mindset long predates science as a social activity, but …science certainly encourages it, and so it is appropriate that science should contribute to correcting it … In an enormous variety of distinct fields of inquiry the same general pattern is becoming clear: there is no such thing as “right,” the very concept needs to be replaced with “progressively less wrong.” The

difference is far from semantic. “Right” is measured by proximity to some fixed idea, “progressively less wrong” by how far people have gotten from where they started.”

What they are talking about is bottom up thinking. There is a built in logic flaw in (most) people’s brain. I call it the brain fart. This flaw prevents people from understanding that what we see is only our perception of reality. It is not reality. It is how our mind makes sense of reality. The perspective doesn’t matter yin/yang, top down/bottom up, reductionist/constructivist etc. These are all inside the skull. In nature, this duality does not exist, it just is.

So what’s happening? We have two cognitive minds, each with it’s own perception.

I’ll try yin/yang.

Yin (plural) are the right minds possible interpretations as determined by processing through a parallel weighted Boolean network. AKA bottom up, constructivist, female, connectedness

Yang (singular) is the left minds interpretation as determined by processing through a serial binary network. AKA top down, reductionist, male, individuation

Taiji (balance) is achieved when the outputs of the two processes are not inconsistent. AKA centering

in the west, the yang is dominant, the Aristotelian brain fart (social imprinting)

in the east, the yin is dominant, the Taoist brain fart (cultural imprinting)

I can’t get it any simpler than that.

Inclusional DataMining pTruthnTruth Multiplism Thoughts Idiots


Posted in Circular with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 26, 2010 by ellocogringo


Feminine God

“A religion old or new, that stressed the magnificence of the universe as revealed by modern science, might be able to draw forth reserves of reverence and awe hardly tapped by the conventional faiths. Sooner or later, such a religion will emerge.” – Carl Sagan, Pale Blue Dot (1994) – www.pantheism “Soul retrieval is a Shamanic skill used to heal a person from illness. Shamans believe that all illness comes from losing power or giving power away to something or someone. It may be spirits from the Inner World that you have traded your soul power with to get fame or fortune or love. It may be a living being who has an energetic cord attached to you and is sucking part of your soul away. It can be a generational soul loss that happened many years ago with your grandfather or great grandmother that you are not even aware of that has taken away part of your family soul. Soul loss can also be caused by a traumatic experience, a car accident, a sudden death in the family, a violent crime, a chronic illness. These things can cause a loss of vital power or energy and that power and energy, a part of one’s wholeness, must be restored to bring health and healing of body mind and spirit back to the patient.” – soul_retrievalThis is the DreamCatcher, found here Gitchie Golly!! as Gomer would say. Doesn’t that sound a lot like “do no allow someone to occupy rent free space in your mind”? Hmm! in fact one could almost say the shaman is doing a QD Fix. Or that the shaman is de-idiotizing the victim. Or the generational soul loss could be described as epigenetics. Or traumatic experience as PTSD. Or the soul as the center leaving a “hole in the soul”. The minds work the same way they always have and always will. This is the insight, the mystery, the wonder that has been dismissed by western civilization as metaphysical bullshit. This works. The words and the mysticism may be different due to wetware, but this works. Check QDFix, Oracle and EarthLady

How Odd! Not only am I the Maylene Muse but also the Shelby Shaman
Another bunch I ran into were the Tupi. Like most countries in latin america there is a spanish upper class and native lower class. From the Amazonian rain forest comes one of the most potent catalysts for expanded awareness yet discovered by human beings. In Ecuador and Peru this medicine is known as Ayahuasca, a Quechua Indian word meaning, ironically, “vine of the dead”. In Columbia and parts of Brazil, the Tupi Indian name Yage (pronounced Ya-hay) is used, and among Amazonia’s proliferating mestizo relious cults it is called Daime…

“Ayahuasca” as a hallucinogenic substance does not properly refer to one single plant, but to a singular mixture of two very different plan species…there is no such thing as an “ayahuasca plant,” or a “yage plant”, any more than there is a simple liquor simply called “Martini.” Ayahuasca correctly refers to a psychedelic combination of plants which varies in potency according to the skill of its maker.

While each shaman has his own secret formula for the mixture (with probably no two exactly alike), it has been established that true ayahuasca always contains both beta-carboline and tryptamine alkaloids, the former (harmine and harmaline) usually obtained from the Banisteriopsis caapi vine, and the latter (N, N-dimethyl-tryptamine, or DMT) from the leaves of the Psychotria viridis bush. (There may be variations among plant species, but the alkaloids are always consistent.

Lakota Medicine Wheel


Medicine Wheel Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

an ancient symbol that traces back 10,000 years in the Americas. Among the different tribes which have used it, the medicine wheel has served both as a map of the cosmos as well as a ceremonial and contemplative tool, a means of honoring and interacting with the world’s elemental forces and intelligences

Brain Soup Wheels Panerind Cherokee In/Ex Art


So what does it all mean? Well I think the feathered medicine wheel above looks like the steering wheel I had on my Studillac. Oh! you expected something more profound. I’ll have to call in the omniscient, all knowing, all seeing munificent professor emeritus maharishi el Loco Gringo. The Amerind worldview is the same as any other neuron trellis used to access the right mind directly. A method of obtaining a wider perspective on life. A method for understanding rather than just knowing, mans interactive relationship with the cosmos. Good shit. Fascinating.

This is probably the most difficult post I have ever attempted. You have no idea how hard it is to find an Amerind in the lotus position. But I felt impelled to get that foxy looking shaman online.

Stuffin it

Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , on June 25, 2010 by ellocogringo


If it is your aim in life to be unhappy, Here are 5 easy steps to achieve that goal. From a survival point of view it is more important that we are than that we are happy. So the mind is biased towards negativity.

Misery Anxiety Anger Depression


Blue funk – a state of nervous depression; “he was in a funk”

Depression – a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity

Depression, in the Taoist view, can be looked at in 4 levels of depth: Spiritual, mental, emotional and physical depression. At any level, depression is an inner conflict of an individual. Spiritual depression is not a health problem and medical science cannot deal with it. The other three types can be helped by various healing arts, because they are all connected to chemical and energetical imbalance.

In the simplest way of understanding, depression is an emotional conflict with the logical mind and physical/chemical balances of the body. If one can logically and completely solve his/her own conflict, or sometimes by spiritual understanding, emotional and/or chemical imbalance is at once normalized.

Using the ANN model the neurons are “locked” into a state of inactivity. Quite the opposite of anxiety, which is a whirlwind of activity. As negative feelings are much more powerful than “feel good” stuff, the state can be difficult to break. With anxiety the mind is frantically searching for an answer, with depression, it has given up. The times I have seen it, it required triggering the fight/flight mechanism.

The Beast

Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , on June 25, 2010 by ellocogringo

The Beast

“There is a slavering beast devouring the minds of man.” – Ayn Rand



“Oh great and sagacious, munificent, all seeing, all knowing master of wisdom how may I find your name and address so that I may bask in your glory? It doesn’t Google.” You may humbly ask. My friends call me Loco (enemies too for that matter except they use a lower case l) and the cops can read my name and address off my drivers license. You, however, may call me master. I can’t give that out. It is part of being centered. If the purpose of any deed is to obtain self aggrandizement it is closed. Self gratification is only a form of mental masturbation and accomplishes nothing. One must keep ones motives pure to assure that one is doing the right thing for the right reason, at the right time. Only zombies practice mental masturbation. It’s a lot of fun, but nothing is accomplished. And the abyss always returns.

Two of the clues are to be found in the works of the following contemporary literary masters.


………Ayn Rand, Fountainhead on “The slavering beast devouring the minds of men”

To me–it’s being left, unarmed, in a sealed cell with a drooling beast of prey or a maniac who’s had some disease that’s eaten his brain out. You’d have nothing then but your voice–your voice and your thought. You’d scream to that creature why it should not touch you, you’d have the most eloquent words, the unanswerable words, you’d become the vessel of the absolute truth. And you’d see living eyes watching you and you’d know that the thing can’t hear you, that it can’t be reached, not reached, not in any way, yet it’s breathing and moving there before you with a purpose of its own. That’s horror. Well, that’s what’s hanging over the world, prowling somewhere through mankind, that same thing, something closed, mindless, utterly wanton, but something with an aim and a cunning of its own. I don’t think I’m a coward, but I’m afraid of it. And that’s all I know–only that it exists. I don’t know its purpose, I don’t know its nature.”


el Loco Gringo, Centering on “the hole in the soul”

The un-centered frighten me, I don’t know where they are coming from. The have no moral compass. How can they know where they’re going? Instead of a center, There is an abyss, a hole in the soul, if you will. No matter what arguments you use, no matter how irrefutable the facts, how impeccable the logic, how righteous the morality, how articulate the wording, all attempts at communication fall into the abyss. They pretend to be human. They are the living un-dead. They are zombies. A walking caricature of a human that wants to eat my brain. Like the Golem, they have no soul. It is the Abyss, it is evil.

The Force

Posted in The Minds with tags , , , on June 25, 2010 by ellocogringo

The Star Wars Philosophy


Yet another view of the yin/yang nature of the mind.  Undoubtedly, however, the strongest influence is Taoist philosophy, and secondarily Zen Buddhism, which inherited much from Taoism. The light and dark side of the Force are analogous to the Yin and Yang duality of the Tao.  I am struck with how the implied philosophy of Star Wars is not inconsistent with many of the duality natures of religion.  And the regalia is neat.  This will add a certain panache when you come strutting into that formal dinner in your Darth Vader outfit.  It’s as good as any and better than most however.
This aligns with the philosophy of some religions (and psychology) that emphasize rational thought and meditation (or medication)  as the path to enlightenment, as opposed to the “dark side” of violent passion and emotion. It also aligns with secular Enlightenment thought, based in reason (the light side) and passionate and often violent pre-WWI romanticism (the dark side).  However the did screw up in the ideology and implementation.  The dark side (of the mind) is dark only because of the Aristotelean brain fart which shut down the right mind.  It seems to be modeled after the Id, which is viewed as sinister in psychology.  The force however is entirely feasible, or at least not inconsistent.  I would be what Ted Lumley calls spacial forcing, I call the Big hoochie koochie, schrodinger calls the “one mind” and many people call god.  so a being like Darth Vader could not exist.  But the Jedi knights could be called centered (sorry to get technical on you, but I am striving to be professional.)  Darth Vader would just be a run of the mill asshole, his power being illusory.
So in summary the only thing feasible in this philosophy is  “The Force”, the dark side and the light side being entirely inside the skull.  Just the dual nature of the mind projecting itself out into the universe.  There is a disturbance in the force could be equated to the bullshit detector going off.

I got to see the original pilot of Star Wars before they realized they had a hit, they had intended a kiddie flick.  I got to meet all the stars except for Harrison Ford.  It was in Denver, sometime in the mid ’80s.  There were maybe a hundred people in the theatre. Star Wars Site


Posted in TD/BU with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 25, 2010 by ellocogringo


Back to Top/Down, Bottom/Up

DrB-07 The problem I have always had with communicating with un-centered people is that whenever the topic turned to soft subjects their thinking became silly, if not insane. Before I recently heard the terms reductionist and constructionist thinking I used the terms top down and bottom up thinking. Math, for instance, is hard. 2+3 = 5, always has, always will. If you are trying to understand a frog, you cut it up and try to understand the pieces. You are dealing with a known. Top down works great here. This only addresses the how. If on the other hand you want to know why, it is necessary to take a more holistic view. Consideration must be given to evolution, environment, ecosystem, niche, mating, food, sex, competition, dangers etc. Top down doesn’t address these issues. Bottom up works here.

In psychology, for instance, there is no frog to cut up. It is an unknown. There is no way you can know what combination of events has led to a particular behavior pattern. Each person is unique, with his own unique environment, hopes, religion, education, experience, dreams, triumphs, failures etc. It is not possible to determine which combination of events caused a particular behavior pattern. It is insane to try. Yet people do. This results in simple concepts exploding into byzantine labyrinths of illogic. Psychology with it’s id, ego, sub-conscious, psychosis’, neurosis’, and all kinds of weird concepts made up to give the illusion of understanding.

Take for instance centering. The concept is simple; “me”, That lone two letter word says all there is to know about centering in bottom up thinking. It is an identity. Integrally implied in the concept of the “me identity” is awareness of self, (I like me, I want to stay me, I don’t want to be anyone else) etc. Even the lowliest life form has a me. ie, Even bacteria are centered. Yet when top down thinking is applied to this concept it explodes into self worth, esteem, pride, moral compass, religion, ethics, philosophy, spirituality etc. which explodes into libraries full of self help books.

Back to the un-centered, their “me” has been displaced, overwritten, co-opted, whatever. It’s still there, always has been, always will be. To me, their mind has become “super tangled”. (If I understand your analogy correctly) They are, to me, insane. Their mind is working against itself. They are scary.

As to the project, oblique verbiage with a visual image should get it past the left hemisphere into the right hemisphere, bypassing the reductionist overlay. There are plenty of self help books, all good stuff, no point in regurgitating them. Assuming a 52 card deck, that’s 26 pages, (both sides) with a 4 page intro. That’s 30 pages for a p-book ($3) or free for an e-book. A physical deck is $13, free for virtual deck.

Fortunately, the mind is a simple thing conceptually, and bottom up thinking works well here.

There is a plethora of data out there, a cornucopia of riches that could solve most of the problems of mankind and allow him to reach his full potential. It just needs to be collated.

Consider the video below. The bacteria is centered. What else can you say? Why do you people make it so complicated?



Posted in Society with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 22, 2010 by ellocogringo


Alas, I feel it’s too late. A collapse seems inevitable. I think that the best that can be hoped for is to have a cadre of non-idiots in place to lead man back from the abyss. Either that or cross your fingers and hope for a 100th monkey phenomenon. Of course, there is the internet, which is new. “Nodes of sanity” are beginning to appear (your site being one) TED is totally awesome. EVOS, Whole Brain, timelessness forever, Non-duality center. But they are so depressingly few.

I feel that the bigger problem is stupidity. If your “standing wave” concept gains traction, that’s nice, I guess. But it doesn’t matter if there’s no one around to appreciate it. And if people weren’t stupid, they could figure it out for themselves. It’s simple enough.

I have little interest in math or physics per se. to my way of thinking math is an artificial quantification of an interpretation of a perception. If the math and reality agree, that’s nice. But the math doesn’t prove the physics, the physics proves the math. (people think backwards)

I have spent my life trying to figure out why people are dumb and am probably the only person in the world who understands how the mind works.

Technology has enabled stupid people to do stupid things for stupid reasons that have led to a situation where civilization itself is very fragile. “Stupid is as stupid does” – Forrest Gump. There are so many ways for this to occur that I don’t know where to begin.

<Are you going to help?>

Sure, if I can. Haven’t been very successful though. I went into reclusion 15 years ago so I wouldn’t have to deal with idiots on more than a superficial level. My brother turned me in for a psych evaluation because he found my mind to be a “whirlwind of delusions” (stuff like matter is an illusion and the universe is composed of vibrations) I had to leave NC to avoid it. But it followed me to Birmingham. (if I refuse “treatment” I loose my medical coverage) I arrive here and sign into the VA. So here I am, a 70 year old guy with HOCM, statin poisoning and an aeorotic aneurism on a walker, and the triage nurse says “ we’ll set you up for the psychological screening, a neurologist, psychologist, psychiatrist, then run a battery of psychological tests.” (no cardiologist, no lipid specialist etc.) So I go see the neurologist who set me up for a bunch of tests. Then the psychologist., the enigmatic DrB. She wasn’t an idiot. You have no idea what a joy it is to be able to transfer a concept from my mind to another, effortlessly, and be challenged on it, on valid grounds. She canceled the remainder of the tests and we began collaborating on how to get the information out. So far we’ve got 3 papers outlined, a speaking invitation, I’m writing a book and have started a website. I don’t think that’s bad for 3 months.

Oops! I slipped a decimal point, it turns out there are 210,000 people in the US capable of understanding your concept, if they are interested. That only leaves about 300 million idiots. There, now don’t you feel better? It’s not nearly as bad as you thought.

What to do? Dunno.


Great Mother

Posted in Godesses with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 22, 2010 by ellocogringo

For I am the first and the last

I am the venerated and the despised

I am the prostitute and the saint

I am the wife and the virgin

I am the mother and the daughter

I am the arms of my mother

I am barren and my children are many

I am the married woman and the spinster

I am the woman who gives birth and she who never procreated

I am the consolation for the pain of birth

I am the wife and the husband

And it was my man who created me

I am the mother of my father

I am the sister of my husband

And he is my rejected son

Always respect me

For I am the shameful and the magnificent one.”

”Nag Hammadi codex NHCVI


Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 19, 2010 by ellocogringo


“We have two cognitive minds each with it’s own logical and perceptual processing, synchronous and modulated by intensity. (weighting)” – el Loco Gringo

Keeping Things Relevant

For those of you interested in  computers, the above model shows what I am talking about.  The ISR (interrupt service routine) is the doorman.  When the right mind makes a correlation between data inputs, it sets the (INT) interrupt flag (attention).  If the left mind can find the “best answer to date on the left algorithm, it goes with the shortcut.  1/2 second.  Else, it searches the left unANN (shortcut memory)  3 seconds. Then the right memory (inclusional memory) 3 seconds, Then the right algorithm 1/2 second.  If no hits are made it sets the IRQ (interrupt request) and evaluates the correlation found in the right mind.  And as with a computer the cache (short term memory) must be flushed periodically or the entire system will get hung up in a endless loop. (spinout)

Our mind only processes data as it relates to real life experience. In speaking with another person about any topic, it then becomes part of our real life experience and will be processed. Whereas before, my real life experience was trying to understand why people reject logic and facts, now my real life experience is the workings of the mind. It is being processed. My understanding this requires that I acquire a better visualization method. “make it so” . I am starting to see the mind in visual symbols, almost impossible to put into words. See if you can put this into words. Picture the unANN as an amorphous (un-ordered) liquid (sic) the ANN “poofs” it causing ripples (in 4 dimensions)

The Doorman

In a normal unblocked brain, each mind, (left binary, right Boolean) receives data simultaneously, and each goes through it’s own logic patterns. Results are compared via the corpus colostrum for hinky. (the bullshit detector) The wire to this bullshit detector has been cut in 80% of the population by imprinting, education, culture, religion and/or taboo on the right mind. The left mind is dominant unless hinky has been detected (within 8 seconds). (this input is not consistent with previous input) The enigmatic DrB and I were discussing various methods of bypassing blocks on the right mind to access it directly. (sideslip, yoga, I Ching, Whack me, Oblique strategies etc.) DrB mentioned a doctor that had been using the same technique and went on to describe it. I didn’t see the relevance. She pulled the paper out of the drawer and read the relevant passage. Yup, she’s exactly right, the guy was using visual images to access the right mind directly. She had omitted the part about visual images in the original accounting. I suspect that if I had recorded the original comments she would be amazed to discover that the central part of the concept, crucial to understanding what she was trying to convey, was omitted. This is the doorman. You have 8 seconds to get a right mind concept past the doorman and make it relevant to survival. (actually I suspect it’s 7 but 8 is the result of research) This is also what is happening with these “fleeting concepts”, you’ve got 8 seconds to nail it down and make it relevant so the left mind has to deal with it.

This goes to communication as well, if you can make a lot of sense in the first 8 seconds the remainder of a speech can be total bullshit and not be flagged as hinky. This is just a QD Fix on a mass scale. Any good sales pitch will be front loaded, start with a bumper sticker then baffle ‘em with bullshit. We have to keep reminding ourselves (every 8 seconds) to “listen for the new told lie”Hair

Hinky – Something as yet undefinable is wrong, out of place; not quite right.

What was I talking about? Oh well. maybe it’ll come to me later


Ayn Rand

Posted in Cosmos with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 19, 2010 by ellocogringo

A New Morality

“One must attend to one’s own needs without infringing on those of others.”

Return to the minds

It is not in the nature of man–nor of any living entity–to start out by giving up, by spitting in one’s own face and damning existence; that requires a process of corruption whose rapidity differs from man to man. Some give up at the first touch of pressure; some sell out; some run down by imperceptible degrees and lose their fire, never knowing when or how they lost it. Then all of these vanish in the vast swamp of their elders who tell them persistently that maturity consists of abandoning one’s mind; security, of abandoning one’s values; practicality, of losing self-esteem. Yet a few hold on and move on, knowing that that fire is not to be betrayed, learning how to give it shape, purpose and reality. But whatever their future, at the dawn of their lives, men seek a noble vision of man’s nature and of life’s potential. …

Ayn Rand, New York, May 1968

“There is a slavering beast devouring the minds of man”

“To me–it’s being left, unarmed, in a sealed cell with a drooling beast of prey or a maniac who’s had some disease that’s eaten his brain out. You’d have nothing then but your voice–your voice and your thought. You’d scream to that creature why it should not touch you, you’d have the most eloquent words, the unanswerable words, you’d become the vessel of the absolute truth. And you’d see living eyes watching you and you’d know that the thing can’t hear you, that it can’t be reached, not reached, not in any way, yet it’s breathing and moving there before you with a purpose of its own. That’s horror. Well, that’s what’s hanging over the world, prowling somewhere through mankind, that same thing, something closed, mindless, utterly wanton, but something with an aim and a cunning of its own. I don’t think I’m a coward, but I’m afraid of it. And that’s all I know–only that it exists. I don’t know its purpose, I don’t know its nature.” – The Fountainhead   This is the pull that got me.  I’ve seen that beast myself.  I call it the abyss.  No matter what you say to them, the words fall into the abyss.  The story itself is about a man who is foolish enough to depend on truth in the justice system and rely on his own integrity to prevail.  Underlining the story line is the theme of second-handers, those who get their self esteem second handed.  I call them zombies.  Even though she got raving reviews, she went to bed crying because no one understood.  Of course, they were zombies incapable of understanding but pretending to.  I disagree with Ayn Rand’s new morality.  What I find interesting is that she was not an idiot.  And I always find interesting things with non idiots. She was a transcendent .047% of the population.  …….. “An irrational society is a society of moral cowards—of men paralyzed by the loss of moral standards, principles and goals. But since men have to act, so long as they live, such a society is ready to be taken over by anyone willing to set its direction. The initiative can come from only two types of men: either from the man who is willing to assume the responsibility of asserting rational values—or from the thug who is not troubled by questions of responsibility.”– Ayn Rand She would be pleased to know that a number of Ayn Rand societies have sprung up fostering study of the philosophy put forth in her books.  The book is cogent, as is atlas shrugged.  Notice the cameo of Ayn Rand in the courtroom.

FountainHead AtlasShrugged Downloads Altruism Anthem Ethics Faith Gold Government Objectivism Path Rights Ayn Rand 1 AynRand 2 Ayn Rand Society Rourke’sSummary Galt’sSpeech

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The three legged stool

Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , , , , , on June 17, 2010 by ellocogringo


Plato’s Mobile Centering 4

I have a logical dilema.  I know that we have two cognitive minds.  It is entirely possible with this model that nothing external to me exists, so that the entire universe is an elaborate hoax set up to trick me.  Somehow, that doesn’t sound reasonable.  In ref to secret 1 & 2,  I’m not happy with what he says, but it does say “it ain’t real” in terms an idiot can understand. in finding fault which I agree with, he speaks of electrical signals. if you’re going to think of it in those terms, the brain is chemical, the “signals” are the effect, not the cause. I was thinking of stripping the sound off, and overlaying my own or just strip the sound off period.

as to how the hell do we get from ourselves as inclusions in the universe to local objects with internal sensing and interpretation equipment?

aye, there’s the rub. In my model, which is truth to me and speculation to you, there are 3 things in play. right mind, left mind and reality. We have two ways of looking at the world. through the tunnel of mainstream physics electrons/space describes “what’s out there”. a totally inadequate view. It is our interpretation of our perception of the electron and the perception of space yields the normal dual interpretation that space is the aggregate and accumulate sum of the electrons. But this is only our perception of “what’s out there”. the same is true for every tunnel I’ve looked through. So……you could say that our perception of ourself in relation to our perception of society is not SOCIETY. IE it is inside the skull. A little disambiguation is in order. So anytime a “dual” view of anything is presented, I wonder where the other element is. If you say intrinsic/extrinsic for instance, It seems to me like a three legged stool with one leg missing. If you intend extrinsic to mean right mind (our perception of what’s out there)., that leaves unanswered “what’s out there?” (that’s where I’m at) If you intend it to mean “what’s out there” that causes me to wonder what happened to your right mind. Genetic defect, amputation, or idiot? for whatever reason it ain’t working. we have to be looking through a tunnel unless we can fit the universe inside the skull, in which case we can make up our own rules. as to “one mind”, this is speculation only, which i tend to agree with, leaves unanswered the question “what is the quantum mind?” I have two hits on the molecule. not inconsistent. If true, there is a tiny bit of mind in each molecule which in the aggregate would make up the “one mind” so they are the same. BUT the one mind and the quantum mind are only inside the skull merely being our perception of “what’s out there” looked at through the mind tunnel. at this scale we would be about half way between the quantum mind and the one mind. The mind analyzes “what’s out there” in two modes which would fully explain everything I have seen. In this case the endpoints set by the tunnel are artifacts, and MAY not reflect reality. whether the universe is infinite or not depends on this and the best we can hope for is “the universe is infinite, as far as we can tell” I don’t think this “one mind” gives a shit what this semi-mini mind thinks about it. The brain itself perceives and interprets in exactly the same way, with the output determined by worldview. why should intrinsic/extrinsic be any different? so we’re back to the yin/yang wars.

Or…. an alternative interpretation, I could be full of shit, I am crazy, don’t you know?


Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 15, 2010 by ellocogringo

Back to healing

“A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?” – Big Al Big Al Quotes

WALTER is now ready to address Big Al’s question. Those who follow me will know what when WALTER speaks, walt and el Loco Gringo have reached consensus. The “best answer to date” of the right algorithm has been set on the left algorithm as a shortcut.

Previously I have spoken of idiots and non-idiots. Idiots are simple, they have the Brain Fart, a debilitating mental condition that prevents them from using their whole brain. Idiots are the norm.

Non-idiots is a more complicated topic, or maybe not. They can always be insane, of course. Let’s pull them out of consideration, to be dealt with later. I am uncomfortable with defining something by what it is not. Non-idiots is cumbersome. Centered is better but it has spiritual overtones which may not be necessarily appropriate. In like manner whole brain thinking has sectarian overtones which also may not be necessarily appropriate. Balanced puts the whole discussion inside the skull, also inappropriate. Yoga puts it outside. The same can be said of all the words used to describe this condition, each being only a partial answer, and viewed as a deviation from the norm. Tao is close.

So this is the way the minds are supposed to work, balancing input to achieve optimal execution. It is not the non-idiot who is an aberration, but the idiot. A non-idiot is able to access his essense whatever that may be, unique for each individual. If you deal with life in the spiritual realm, it is being able to access that little bit of God that is within us all. If you deal with life in the secular realm, it is being able to access that little bit of the universe that is within us all. They are, after all, the same thing. So Big Al is normal.

And to Big Al, the others are crazy, you are Normal

Kali Maa

Posted in Godesses with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 15, 2010 by ellocogringo

World Mother

Jai Kali Ma

Now this is a goddess I could really get into. Hindu gods come in different incarnations depending on their mood. PMS I guess, or maybe PTSD. Whatever the cause they seem to have really bad mood swings. As I have mentioned I am interested in how the mind works only and am fascinated with different cultures, theology? not so much. Check the gal on the left, rather sweet motherly type, wouldn’t you say? That’s who she is to her friends. Now check the one on the right, that’s who she is to her enemies. (Long Tongue, she laps up abloutions) In case you can’t make it out she is wearing a necklace made of severed heads. Click on the pictures to enlarge. Here’s a really good short explaination so I won’t go into it.

Shakti maa the power mother goddess

I’ve included the sound track below in case you want to get psyched up for road rage or go wilding with the boys.

You might get re-incarnated as a psychologist.


Shakti maa the power mother goddess

As I have mentioned, I spent time in Singapore and flew all over the east repairing computer systems. One of these systems was in Serangoon Road, the heart of the Hindu community. There was a temple, Chitier (pronounced shitier) which had all kinds of fun activities. These people are not really known for their conservative architecture. Click on these pictures to enlarge.

Do NOT piss off Kali Maa.

One of the social activities they really got into was firewalking. They would stoke up a coal fire in a pit to the point I couldn’t get within 15 feet of it, then leisurely stroll across. Kinda like baptists holding bake sales I guess. Witnessing this stuff first hand gives a really surreal feeling. Makes my minds run around in my skull like hampsters in an exercise ball.



Another fun activity was the thaipusam festival. It should be noted that some of the traditional hindu practices are banned in most countries. Stuff like killing infant female children, or burning the wife along with the husband at funerals. Things like body piercing, Kavadis, and self mutilation are, however, still permitted in Singapore and Kuala Lumpar. Vanquished I love the expression on that gal’s face “Oops! They didn’t tell me it was going to hurt.” Check this picture, those are fishooks stuck into his back pulling a cart. And they don’t mince down the road, they boogie, the oranges swinging back and forth.The people themselves, however, are quite gentle, maybe the religion is cathardic and gets it out of their system.

Some of the temples I saw in india were completely decorated in porn. Jainism I think. Then there’s the Kama Sutra kind of a vedic “Joy of sex”. I walked around one temple in India and came up with more than 100 positions before I gave up. Some of them looked like they’d hurt. While speaking of architecture the Taj Mahal comes to mind, built by shah Jahan for his main squeeze. He must have really had the hots for her. That’s one I didn’t get to see.

Jai Kali Ma

Jai Kali Maa


Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , , , , , , on June 13, 2010 by ellocogringo

Scientist, Engineer, Technician




One of the differences between the p-Zombie and the centered is that the p-Zombie has no choice. His actions, thoughts, concepts are limited by “someone else occupying rent free space in his mind”. This is about 90% of the population.

The centered, however, have choices. They can CHOOSE to operate on one of three planes.
The scientist, the “head in the clouds” idealist to whom all things are possible. Putting together seemingly disparate pieces of information to form new concepts.
The engineer, the generalist who can translate these concepts into actionable plans.
The technician, the specialist with the talent to implement these plans.

They can also choose to be an idiot or an asshole, but then they loose choice.

Notice I used the word plane and not level. Use of the word level would assume a hierarchy which doesn’t exist. Who am I to place a value judgment on how someone else chooses to achieve self fulfillment. That is their truth. The technician has chosen to achieve self fulfillment as a technician. That is HIS truth, that is his #1 level. I would just be an asshole if I were to attempt to quantify his decision by my values.

(Me, I, Self/Society)

As I mentioned, the individual consists of 3 personae:

I – left hemisphere, serial, literal, organized, in industrial parlance operates in the technician mode, ie the mind technician implements decisions. Locked and un-centered. Threatened by new concepts. 80% of population.

Type a; idiot

Type b; asshole

Me – combined, understands and interprets the Self for implementation by the I. Ie The mind engineer. Locked. Not threatened by new concepts. 20% of population.

Self – right hemisphere, creative, random inquisitive. The mind scientist. Unlocked and centered. Seeks out new concepts<1% of population.

Another way of looking at this is; if one assumes that mankind can be divided into smart and dumb, they would break out as follows;

smart people who know they’re smart <1% the mind scientist. Open.

smart people who think they’re dumb 10% the mind engineer. Centered.

dumb people who think they’re smart 10% the asshole. Closed.

dumb people who know they’re dumb 80% the mind technician. Centered

Temporal Displacement

Posted in The Minds with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 13, 2010 by ellocogringo

Temporal Displacement

disconnect from time

“You don’t really live longer if you give up your nasty habits. It just seems that way” – el Loco Gringo

As has been my experience the best understanding of a concept comes from people who depend upon understanding this concept for a living.

The following is from>Neural Psychology and game design. Excerpts

“Predictive closure is the capacity of the mind to suggest consistent completion of a mental model, filling information gaps with a reasonable inference based on learned information.

Temporal Displacement is the prediction of hypothetical situations, including the predicted point of view of another person. Damasio calls this the “extended consciousness”

Extended consciousness goes beyond the here and now of core consciousness, both backward and forward. The here and now is still there, but it is flanked by the(remembered) past, as much past as you may need to illuminate the now effectively, and just as importantly, it is flanked by the anticipated future.” (Note, there is only now. The past is memories only and the future is anticipations.)

Anticipated is the key word in the above. We do not really predict the future, we anticipate it based on past experience IE “the best answer to date” and musing to determine alternate “best answers to date”. Alternative pasts. Viewed from an evolutionary point of view it is more important that we are rather than that we are happy. Thus our emotions are heavily weighted to the negative. By that I mean it is more important that we avoid being eaten now so that we can enjoy the lesser pleasure of eating later. Or you could say that if we are eaten now, the future becomes moot.

The sound byte for evolution is “survival of the fittest”, and although there is some of that, It really has more to do with the non-survival on the unfit. If you and a companion are being chased by a lion, you don’t have to run faster than the lion, you only have to run faster than your companion. Thus evolution is really “survival of the fit enough”. Indeed if it really were “survival of the fittest” the species would go extinct. People think backwards.

This speaks to subjective time, the “will this never end” feeling you get when you listen to your mother-in-law’s description of her gall bladder operation. Bad is more important than good and so we are wired to pay closer attention, and we don’t like it. But people that didn’t lost the race.

It also speaks to the “indeterminate December”. Based on various past “best answers to date” my left hemisphere could not get closure. It had “lost the plot”. A top down thinking fail. My right hemisphere has reacquired the plot and anticipates a ETF default sometime around November (election time). A bottom up thinking rescue. I really hope for a bottom up thinking fail. An ETF default would be some bad shit. There are a lot of signs now that I look for them. If the price of gold suddenly shoots up to $1500+, toss the guns in the car and head to the woods. On the up side, I’m not getting those flags anymore. They were getting as annoying as pop-up ads. Somehow, that’s not reassuring.

There is only now, the past is memories and the future speculation” – el Loco Gringo

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