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Top Down/Bottom Up

Posted in TD/BU with tags , , , , , , , , , on October 10, 2010 by ellocogringo

TD/BU

I know NOTHING” – Schultz, Hogan’s Heros

Bottom up thinking makes NO assumptions. “It is obvious that” has no place in bottom up thinking. Nothing is taken for granted. This is fuzzy logic (bottom up thinking) Which can be “The best answer to date” (level 1), “This idea seems to work for the moment” (level 2) or the less definitive “Could be” (Level 3)

I am painting with a broad brush here. So as not to bloat the concepts, I will omit the exceptions, special cases and disclaimers.

Fuzzy logic is a form of multi-valued logic derived from fuzzy set theory to deal with reasoning that is approximate rather than precise. In contrast with “crisp logic”, where binary sets have binary logic, the fuzzy logic variables may have a membership value of not only 0 or 1 – that is, the degree of truth of a statement can range between 0 and 1 and is not constrained to the two truth values of classic propositional logic. Oh Really!, you think so huh?

In fact what is accepted as truth in top down thinking is only Level 1 as determined by bottom up thinking. It is NEVER complete, and could be entirely wrong if hijacked by religion, education or other societal programming. If this societal programming occurs during the critical period of growth (birth-age 7 or puberty) it can become imprinting, a PERMANENT inability of the mind to accept new concepts. A person can know, but not understand a concept that does not fit into this framework. They become idiots (not used as a pejorative but as a clinical term, I am, after all, striving to be professional) The implications of this imprinting are profound. Bottom up thinking is regarded as psychotic by mental health and meta-physical bullshit by the general population. Not only is creativity crushed by this imprinting but it has resulted in a society composed of zombies (stupid people, doing stupid things for stupid reasons) living a meaningless existence in an ant warren.
An example of this is physics, in which the nature of the universe being of a wave nature is known but not understood. To date I am aware of a dozen people who understand, and half of them are dead. Some of the live ones are;
Ted Lumley>http://goodshare.org/wp/whats-the-matter/
Gabriel LaFreniere> http://glafreniere.com/sa_electron.htm
Milo Wolff> http://www.quantummatter.com/
Consider the following discussion between Chief Dan George, Erwin Schrodinger and Albert Einstein on the wave nature of the universe.
http://goodshare.org/wp/whats-the-matter/
The question was posed “is space making electrons or are electrons making space?”
Automatically excluded were the possibilities of both or neither. This is the “brain fart” a built in logic flaw in the brain.
The answer is NOT A or B but both or neither.
Please note I am not speaking of physics here, I am speaking of thinking of physics.
http://www.divshare.com/direct/12610892-4f8.pdfI recently became interested in the aboriginal framework of reasoning. I have heard it described as circular reasoning.
Circular reasoning is an attempt to support a statement by simply repeating the statement in different or stronger terms. In this fallacy, the reason given is nothing more than a restatement of the conclusion that poses as the reason for the conclusion.
I don’t see it that way, I see it as “wheels within wheels” and not even “what goes around comes around” but “what goes around comes around goes around etc”. For instance a 260 day calendar would seem to make no sense unless one considers that the gestation period is 260 days. Thus if a woman conceived on Tzolkin 10 she could expect the birth on Tzolkin 10, As this was synchronized with the Haab (365 day calendar) no calculation was needed. This imprinting is canabilastic in nature, like the zombie, it want’s to eat your brains. It is the Ayn Rand Beast.
Consider the Protohuman “Charlie Chimp” in the paleolithic, considering whether he should bonk Polly protohuman. Using top down thinking the answer comes out in a simplified, non-nuanced yes or no. However, As Charlie hasn’t had the social imprinting to mess up his mind, he can use another logic method. Bottom up, a weighted Boolean network with possibilities of yes, no, or maybe. The weighting aspect is an aggregate and accumulative bias. Most simply explained by the logic tree “The last time I bonked Polly protohuman, how many times did the alpha male hit me, and how hard?” Charlie compares the bottom up and top down logic and makes a decision on whether his genetic heritage will be carried on through Polly. Very useful as a bullshit detector. “Is what this guy babbling about consistent with my previous experience?” From an assholes point of view, this bullshit detector must be turned off so as to brainwash the idiot. Painting with a broad brush, “education put the sub in subconscious”, was preceded by “religion put the sub in subconscious” preceded by “the alpha male put the sub in subconscious”. (I have a fear that if I talk like an idiot I may start thinking like one.) People have lost the ability to say Bullshit!

Moving right along, when my bullshit detector goes off, I discard ALL logic and view input as data only until the issue is resolved. I have discarded all physics as speculation. It doesn’t even pass the “could be” test. It’s bullshit. Godel’s model has less bullshit than most, but it’s still bullshit. (I suspect that he may understand what he’s saying and is trying to communicate with idiots). All of his twisted logic and convoluted math doesn’t prove or disprove anything. All he has done is twist and stretch the rubber ruler till it matches observed data. My observation on this matter has been that knowledge is inversely proportional to understanding. “Stupid may be catching” – el Loco Gringo From an egocentric point of view, the disjuncture occurs inside the skull, this difference between a perception of reality and the interpretation of same. As far as I can see, the vast majority of speculation on the output side is bullshit. On the input side all I have to work with is a filtered perception. This filtered perception leads me to conclude that it has a rotational aspect (perceived) and has a beat of 8 (is recursive with a harmonic of 8) That it is vibrations and is negentropic seems too obvious to discuss. There is overwhelming evidence that it is and nothing but “common sense” that says it isn’t. I am shocked that you consider “rotating vectors” a notion. Granted it’s a kludge, but it’s the best kludge available (to date) The entire industrialized civilization is built around this kludge. By filtered I mean that we do not have input across the entire spectrum. For instance, you turn on a radio and music comes out. There is obviously something invisible happening. Depending on one’s world view, this could be interpreted as magic, god, nirvana, whatever. (Actually I kind of like the idea of god, if there is one there is no evidence he gives a shit about man, one way or the other) If the universe is harmonic vibrations, it logically follows that time, color, touch, and sound are the minds way of making sense of motion, (time) non-motion, (touch) vibrations in the 20-20khz range (sound) and 300-700Thz. (color) Every one knows it but no one understands it. It should be obvious once it is pointed out, but it isn’t to most people. Why?

In fact what is accepted as truth in top down thinking is only Level 1 as determined by bottom up thinking. It is NEVER complete, and could be entirely wrong if hijacked by religion, education or other societal programming. If this societal programming occurs during the critical period of growth (birth-age 7 or puberty) it can become imprinting, a PERMANENT inability of the mind to accept new concepts. A person can know, but not understand a concept that does not fit into this framework. They become idiots (not used as a pejorative but as a clinical term, I am, after all, striving to be professional) The implications of this imprinting are profound. Bottom up thinking is regarded as psychotic by mental health and meta-physical bullshit by the general population. Not only is creativity crushed by this imprinting but it has resulted in a society composed of zombies (stupid people, doing stupid things for stupid reasons) living a meaningless existence in an ant warren.Circular reasoning is an attempt to support a statement by simply repeating the statement in different or stronger terms. In this fallacy, the reason given is nothing more than a restatement of the conclusion that poses as the reason for the conclusion.I don’t see it that way, I see it as “wheels within wheels” and not even “what goes around comes around” but “what goes around comes around goes around etc”. For instance a 260 day calendar would seem to make no sense unless one considers that the gestation period is 260 days. Thus if a woman conceived on Tzolkin 10 she could expect the birth on Tzolkin 10, As this was synchronized with the Haab (365 day calendar) no calculation was needed.

This imprinting is canabilastic in nature, like the zombie, it want’s to eat your brains. It is the Ayn Rand Beast. “There is a slavering beast devouring the mind of man. You know that no matter how eloquent the words, how impecable the logic, how irrefutable the facts, it can’t be reached, not in any way. There is no mind there” – Ayn Rand I call it the abyss, IE all words fall into the abyss. I like beast better Consider the Cheshire cat in Alice in Wonderland, perhaps the greatest treatise on philosophy ever written. When queried on which road to take, he responded “Well, if you don’t know where you’re going it doesn’t much matter which path you take” And this is, in fact, where we are when trying to figure something out. WE DON’T KNOW WHERE WE’RE GOING. To start with the answer and work our way back to the question is insane. Can’t anyone else see that?

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Bipolar Manic/Depression

Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 28, 2010 by ellocogringo


About Me

Manic/Depression Disorder or Genius?

I may be crazy, but everyone else is insane” – el Loco Gringo

Bipolar is a counterfeit concept.  It is a word used by idiots to describe something they don’t understand giving them the delusional belief that they understand what is going on.  They do not.  The idea that one can reverse engineer the mind to understand the root causes of behavior strikes me as idiocy, bordering on insanity.

I’ve always been crazy” – Waylon Jennings

One question that has always driven me hazy, am I crazy or is everyone else?” – Albert Einstein

This is directed to the mental health profession.  You’re idiots.  As a certifiable bipolar manic/depressionist. (I haven’t been caught yet) I’d like to give my take on the subject from the inside.

First of all, I’m in good company. Note the image of my personal hero Big Al.   A partial list in alphabetical order are; Ludwig Van Beethoven, Ludwig Boltzmann, Lord Byron, Winston Churchill, Charles Dickens, Richard Dryfuss, Patti Duke, Albert Einstein, Ralph Waldo Emerson. Carrie Fisher, F Scott Fitzgerald, Alexander Hamilton, Ernest Hemingway, Kay Redfield Jamison*, John Keats, Vivian Leigh, Isaac Newton, Florence Nightingale, Jane Pauley, Edgar Alan Poe, Mark Twain, Vincent van Goth, Kurt Vonnegut, Virginia Woolf. (I didn’t realize that bipolar was an available condition that long ago.) Since idiot psychologists have no problem with with ex-post facto diagnosis, I’ll add a few more to the list. Socrates, Homer Simson, Plato, Copernicus, Pliny, Galileo, Leonardo da Vinci. Goober, Mary Sommerville, Ayn Rand, Francois Mandelbrot. There are many contemporary bipolar/genius’. Since I don’t want to be responsible for them getting a net thrown over them and shot up with dopazine*, I’ll leave them un-named. In fact every great thinker who has avoided beheading, burning at the stake or being shot up with dopazine was and is bipolar. This does not preclude them having emotional problems like every one else. (which they are especially prone to because they have to live in a world full of idiots). Or as Waylon said above; they may be crazy, but that doesn’t mean they’re insane. As to Einstein’s quote. Yes, Big Al, every one else really is crazy.

Let’s look at the words;

Disorder – First it is not a disorder, nor a disease, nor are they possessed by demons, nor are they heretics. Nor are they metaphysical, nor mystic. “The devil did not make them do it”. They are not defective, although they can be convinced they are with enough idiot therapy.  They are not insane although they are certainly crazy in the sense that they do not think like the norm (idiots). In fact, one could say it is pathological to be well adjusted in this society. What they are capable of is viewing life from a different, more complete perspective.

Bipolar – I can certainly understand the mood swings from the elation of discovering a concept to depression at being unable to communicate this concept to idiots.

Manic – A state of heightened awareness, nirvana, whole-brain thinking, bottom up thinking. No assumptions are made and ALL possibilities are considered.

Depression – It’s not depression so much as incredibly extreme frustration at being unable to communicate with idiots.  They have “spun out” trying desperately to find a way to communicate.

“Symptoms” (It’s not a disease)

Cannot stay on topic, flits from subject to subject with no apparent connection or goal. – This is the bottom up thinking process in action. Musing, as opposed to thinking. This is how the right hemisphere works. It is necessary to communicate with another to gather the facts for the associations to be made in the right hemisphere for the left hemisphere to process. Only by communicating with another do the concepts become “real” IE necessary for interfacing with others. Remember, there are NO preconceived assumptions. ALL is considered. I’ve heard it described as rambling and incoherent.

Paranoid – That’s certainly true. Sometimes they are not paranoid enough and they get burned at the stake, beheaded or shot up with dopazine.

Attaches an exaggerated sense of importance to their concepts – Saving humanity from going extinct isn’t important? Who’s crazy now?

Often creates entire disciplines to support their delusional ideas – Well, whatcha gonna do when the “experts” are clueless?

Has their own lexicon – Yup, when there are no words available to express their concepts. There is a school of philosophy which posits that “having a concept for which a word does not exist is, in and of itself, insanity.” Who’s crazy now?

Unconsidered is the possibility that the reason the person making the diagnosis does not understand the BPD is that he/she is an idiot. I used to think that psychology was silly. I’ve upgraded that to barbaric. Instead of nurturing them, SOCIETY IS KILLING OFF THE GENIUS in the genius’s , the very people whose insight could enrich the life of mankind.  Dopazine in these cases only lowers the ability of the mind to that of the idiot who prescribes it.  In that sense, he becomes normal.  You’re not helping them, you’re making them dumb.  Psychology is a pseudo-science in the same class as Voodoo.  With the caveat that voodoo works better.  When a naked priestess dances around you, chanting and shaking her beads and rattles, it is definitely a mind altering experience.  I know, I’ve experienced both.

This is my mind, and mine alone. I like it just as it is. It has guided and protected me through a turbulent life. It has shown me the beauty and the ugliness of the world in all it’s glory and depravity. I have marveled at the richness of the world and the people in it. It has given me a most rewarding journey. It is a fine mind indeed. And I am proud of it, so very proud. It has served me well.” – el Loco Gringo

HOW DARE AN IDIOT PASS JUDGEMENT?

It is not we who are crazy

it is YOU!


el Loco Gringo pulls back the curtain

Granted, there can be chemical or harmonal imbalances, injury, emotional distress etc. but basically this is the underlying problem.

The Doorman

“You’re not making them better, you’re making them dumb” – Rufus May

“I work with people who get defined as ‘mentally ill’. But I don’t see them as having faulty brains and in need of strong medication. I believe madness and distress is a result of having been on the receiving end of various forms of social injustice.” – Rufus May

Emergence Awakening The mad psychologist Bipolar A-Z Mind Freedom Rufus May TheRealCause

The person who professes to be a person concerned with the well being of troubled people can “deeply listen”.  If the psychologist thinks of him/herself as a friend, albeit a professional paid friend.  Usually they do not want the answer, what they want is a “mirror” so they can find their own answer.   There is no difference in results between a PHD and a plumber who volunteers to help on the weekends.  The patient is the expert on the patient, not the psychologist.  It is the connectedness that matters.  The patient is not defective. Usually, he is only confused (or hazy as Einstein put it).   Be careful on passing judgement.  I’ve just passed mine.

el Loco Gringo pulled back the curtain

*Dopazine – generic term for any psychotropic drug that turns the patient into a dope

*Smartacide – kills off your smarts

Please don’t help me, I’ve done nothing wrong!

SoulTeacher Susan Polgar Bipolar_Sid


Stuffin it

Posted in Healing with tags , , , , , , , , , , on June 25, 2010 by ellocogringo

Misery

If it is your aim in life to be unhappy, Here are 5 easy steps to achieve that goal. From a survival point of view it is more important that we are than that we are happy. So the mind is biased towards negativity.

Misery Anxiety Anger Depression

Depression

Blue funk – a state of nervous depression; “he was in a funk”

Depression – a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity

Depression, in the Taoist view, can be looked at in 4 levels of depth: Spiritual, mental, emotional and physical depression. At any level, depression is an inner conflict of an individual. Spiritual depression is not a health problem and medical science cannot deal with it. The other three types can be helped by various healing arts, because they are all connected to chemical and energetical imbalance.

In the simplest way of understanding, depression is an emotional conflict with the logical mind and physical/chemical balances of the body. If one can logically and completely solve his/her own conflict, or sometimes by spiritual understanding, emotional and/or chemical imbalance is at once normalized.

Using the ANN model the neurons are “locked” into a state of inactivity. Quite the opposite of anxiety, which is a whirlwind of activity. As negative feelings are much more powerful than “feel good” stuff, the state can be difficult to break. With anxiety the mind is frantically searching for an answer, with depression, it has given up. The times I have seen it, it required triggering the fight/flight mechanism.

Essence

Posted in About Me with tags , , , , , , , on May 17, 2009 by ellocogringo

The Essence of me

 

 

“What is this thing that el Loco Gringo so fiercely defends? It is a tiny vortex that has formed in the temporal river. It exists for the briefest of moments, then is reabsorbed. It strives to balance the forces of the ripples within and the ripples without, maintaining an ethereal form that allows connectedness with the universe and the individual me. It defends me from those who seek to remove this individuation and connectedness. Sometimes doldrums, sometimes rapids. Under the tree limbs and around the rocks. The river has no purpose. It just flows from high ground to low, with no whence or whither, only anon. it obeys the law of the universe, negentropy, time’s arrow. And in the end, this vortex loses form. “The moving finger writes, and having writ, moves on” – Omar Khayyam. Throughout it all, el Loco Gringo never lost the wonder. It is the essence of me. In the end, there is only the river. All is as it should be.” – walt

“This is my mind, and mine alone. I like it just as it is. It has guided and protected me through a turbulent life. It has shown me the beauty and the ugliness of the world in all it’s glory and depravity. I have marveled at the richness of the world and the people in it. It has given me a most rewarding journey. It is a fine mind indeed. And I am proud of it, so very proud. It has served me well.” – el Loco Gringo


I have been blessed/cursed with the gift/burden of the “We inside of me” – WALTER